That I have suicidal thoughts pretty often - and it's partly because I feel trapped in our marriage, and that is because I'm afraid if I walk away I'll be alone forever.

Thanks PP. good news is the only thing I'm sad about is that I didn't speak up for myself sooner. If anyone is out there even thinking about saying something to your doctor about how rundown or sad you are, do it. My life changed instantly when I finally made a weak ask for help. It's been five years and I'm so happy and most importantly back to being myself. If it's even crossed your mind that things aren't right for you, talk to your doctor. I needed that reminder then but unfortunately it took me a year to see that sleeping all the time and sobbing at the news was not behavior that was in line with the real me.

Anonymous wrote:I had a pretty debilitating bout of depression, but I've always sort of told him (and myself) that it was a phase we all have, not a big deal, meds work so yay for getting help. But really I spent that year wanting to die and hoping everyday I would. He doesn't know that and he won't. It would break his heart to know we were together and I felt that way.

Hugs

I had a pretty debilitating bout of depression, but I've always sort of told him (and myself) that it was a phase we all have, not a big deal, meds work so yay for getting help. But really I spent that year wanting to die and hoping everyday I would. He doesn't know that and he won't. It would break his heart to know we were together and I felt that way.

I can't think of a thing she doesn't know about me. She thinks that there's more, that there are things she doesn't know, but sadly there's not.

Anonymous wrote:I have had an AP for the past year.

Same here.

Anonymous wrote:

Anonymous wrote:Guy here. She would freak if she knew I had sex with other men before I met her. Consider myself bisexual. Monogamous with no desire to get back together with men. Admittedly, if the marriage ended, I would probably do it again.

This is pretty much my biggest fear. It would be instant separation.

Why would you separate because your DH had previous relationships with men? Don't you actually love him or is this a simple business relationship?
Homophobic?
Seems sad to me.

Anonymous wrote:Guy here. She would freak if she knew I had sex with other men before I met her. Consider myself bisexual. Monogamous with no desire to get back together with men. Admittedly, if the marriage ended, I would probably do it again.

Eh - if be okay with it.

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Anonymous wrote:I have a history of depression and, as a teenager, self harm. I still deal with moments of profound despair and suicidal thoughts on occasion. He has no sympathy for this sort of "weakness" and would probably consider divorcing me and trying to have the kids taken away from me if he knew.

You deserve way better. Sorry to say this, but your DH is the "weak" one. Just another self-centered bottom feeder.

+1

So many here!

Anonymous wrote:

Anonymous wrote:

Anonymous wrote:Guy here. She would freak if she knew I had sex with other men before I met her. Consider myself bisexual. Monogamous with no desire to get back together with men. Admittedly, if the marriage ended, I would probably do it again.

This is pretty much my biggest fear. It would be instant separation.

Same here...

Does the fact that you feel you have to hide this affect your relationship with your wife?
Why did you decide to marry someone who will freak if she know this about you?

Anonymous wrote:I have a history of depression and, as a teenager, self harm. I still deal with moments of profound despair and suicidal thoughts on occasion. He has no sympathy for this sort of "weakness" and would probably consider divorcing me and trying to have the kids taken away from me if he knew.

You deserve way better. Sorry to say this, but your DH is the "weak" one. Just another self-centered bottom feeder.

Anonymous wrote:That I (DW) occasionally watch porn in private. Plus the particular things i like to watch - I've never told him.

Just to add...I don't even think he'd bat an eye, but I still keep it private.

Vsubois19 wrote:Describe one thing your partner might not know about you. It can be a childhood experience, a previous job, a hidden passion, a needLma part of your personality, etc...

OP, what's your answer?

That I (DW) occasionally watch porn in private. Plus the particular things i like to watch - I've never told him.

I have had an AP for the past year.