Thanks for the update. Hope you hear results today. Sending you my best

Beautifully put, PP. My heart goes out to you also. OP, keep reaching out to us and to others in your life. Waiting is the worst, even when you are assuming the worst. Having answers allows the grieving to begin and the healing can't happen until the grieving happens. Take it from an expert. Lots of hugs.

OP, this site can be toxic at worst, snarky usually, and occasionally a place of great comfort. I have been on the receiving end of good wishes sent earnestly over the wires, and am glad to send them to you now. We need each other, we all do. If I knew who you were, I would show up with some Trader Joes supplies, enough for dinner and some snacks, and sit and watch Project Runway with you. I wish I could. I hope your "real life" friends are, or your husband, or your Mom. Those people were such a comfort to me.

When we lost our much-wanted, much-worked-for daughter at 11 weeks (after 8 rounds of IVF), I didn't know how to go through the motions of daily life. It seems absurd to still need to grocery shop, bicker with health insurance, deal with petty issues. But there was no escaping life, and though I sometimes sit and think about her, I am mostly ok. I didn't think that would be possible, my little dream daughter gone, but I'm okay.

If this all goes to hell for you, it will be awful. It will be excruciating. And you will heal. Whether you want to or not. Time passes. Love remains, and so does sorrow, but time passes and we heal.

I'm sending you all my best. Really.

OP again.

You all, I wish there were words to express how much your kindnesses have comforted me over these past weeks. Thank you for your caring and outpouring of support and hope -- for a complete stranger. It is not only very moving to see how the Internet tribe has rallied 'round, but also has been immensely comforting. I am so grateful to each and every one of you.

Thank you.

OP I am so, so sorry you are going through this. I have been thinking about you every day since you posted. I'm not usually a praying kind, but I've shot a few up there just in case.

OP again. Still no word on those damned results. We did the CVS on October 1 -- sure seems like we should have answers by now. Apparently the lab they are using is in New Mexico and sometimes they don't send results until late evening Eastern time, after the office is closed. I've tried so hard to be patient this week and to just be in the moment, but the looming prospect of going through the whole weekend without knowing is killing me. And I don't want to be THAT patient who annoys her doctor's office with continual calls (but apparently I'm becoming that patient anyway).

Anyone else have such a long delay in getting CVS results? Does it just take that long to grow the cultures?

Every day that passes in this hellish limbo I am acutely aware of how far along we are -- we will be 15 weeks on Sunday. If it takes many more weeks for the full CVS and microarray results to arrive (or if they are somehow inconclusive either way), our situation will get even more difficult than it already is.

I thought a lot of things might happen in this pregnancy, but I never imagined getting this far, only to find ourselves in this position. I guess I was naive.

Thinking about you OP. Every day I've thought "Well, she's one day closer to knowing! She's made it through another day!" It's amazing what we can stand, isn't it? Please update us when you find out, and I'm so so hoping for some kind of amazing news for you.

Thanks for the update, OP. My hearts goes out to you.

OP here -- nope, not yet. Thanks for checking in. We expected full CVS results back today but I haven't heard from the doctor (and she's usually very prompt), so I'm wondering if maybe we won't hear till tomorrow. I'll let you guys know what we learn.

Meantime, I wanted to say to all of you who have shared your own experiences in this -- my heart goes out to all of you. And in particular I've been thinking of the 17:27 poster who is in the midst of it right now, and was going to Children's this past Monday -- you've been very much in my thoughts and I hope you're hanging in there through all this heartache.

Any update OP?

I too have made that heartbreaking choice. DH'S us a fed so we had to go to a clinic. The waiting room sucked but the medical team was so compassionate and caring. The clinic even had a fetal anomaly PA who was awesome. She coordinated the follow up genetic testing. The clinic also works with a local funeral home who cremated te remains at no cost. If you have to go that route, you will survive too, I promise. It's been 6 years and I am good. My DD is 4 and healthy.

Another poster chiming in to say I'm thinking of you, OP, and I hope everything goes well. Whatever happens, I wish you the best. I'm so sorry you're going through this.

Hi OP, just wanted to offer you virtual hugs and warm thoughts throughout your ordeal.

Anonymous wrote:Lots of love to the OP and all of you who have gone through this terribly painful experience.

Agreed. I have not been down this road - just (inadequately) tried to support a close friend on their journey. And my heart breaks for all of you who have to travel it.

OP, I am sorry you are going through this. Count me in as another person who has BTDT. My experience was terrible but I came out okay in the end. Forever changed, but okay. Lots of hugs.