Feel like I am on the verge of one now. Too much going on in my head to try to put into writing. But this is just too much.How can one even begin to parent under such circumstances.

Anonymous wrote:Honestly, this is why I meditate. It took me a very long time to learn that my thoughts and emotions aren’t me, they are just tools to use to make the best decisions, and I only learned that through meditation. Now I’m more aware of all the signals my mind and body give me when I need a break, and I take them seriously instead of just powering through them to get one more task done. I can’t help others if I haven’t helped myself first.

That's amazing - kudos to you, I hope I get there on not letting thoughts and emotions get to me

Anonymous wrote:My husband and his Asperger's has brought me to multiple nervous breakdowns. Never my son with special needs.

Big hugs, OP. You will get through it, but not without PTSD. Accepting your injuries is the first step towards healing them, because mentally you know you're in it for the long haul and you need to preserve your strength.

Same. Spouse’s asd issues are very hurtful.

It sometimes takes all the patience I have not to throttle my co-worker who has no children, and is constantly going on skiing trips, vacations to Hawaii, out of the country, when they tell me why they will be out of the office. I dream of sitting in my car alone in the drive-through at Starbucks without waiting for the next shoe to drop re: school disciplinary issue, insurance denial, or angry outburst from my SN kid, and having enough funds (currently all taken up by extra services) to just go on a nice vacation...by myself.