I have a colleague / friend who is stuffing with depression and got an accommodation to take a certain number of sick hours per week for awhile (like reduce her hours to 25 or something like that) while she seeks treatment. If you have sick leave saved up and a break / reset could help maybe you could consider something like this.

Do you have a reasonable accommodations office? I have an injury that will make some of my tasks harder for a few months (I’m in a cast). I reached out to our accommodations office with ideas about what might help me and also to see if they had other ideas, which they did. They suggested something I didn’t know was even possible (certain software I didn’t think we used). My manager didn’t know it was allowed (usually it isn’t; but there are exceptions) but was very open to it when she learned it was.

If you are on pain meds and can’t do your job, and this is likely to be permanent, you should look into disability retirement, after exhausting your leave and fmla.

Anonymous wrote:

Anonymous wrote:

Anonymous wrote:

Anonymous wrote:

Anonymous wrote:EAP is confidential. Your manager should not know you are using it and certainly wouldn’t be privy to any details.

Correct statement but I will eventually hear it.

- Office Director.

What will you hear? Because you won’t hear anything from the EAP people themselves.

Don't be naive. Fed system leaks more than sinking Titanic.

I’ve been a Fed manager for 10 years and have never heard that any of my employees are using EAP, let alone the details. I know some have because they told me. But never have I heard it from anyone else. Nor should I.

Thanks for sharing. Sounds like you just never know. It’s agency-dependent.

I just don’t want my boss to find out even as I trust her to be a decent person.

Anonymous wrote:

Anonymous wrote:

Anonymous wrote:

Anonymous wrote:EAP is confidential. Your manager should not know you are using it and certainly wouldn’t be privy to any details.

Correct statement but I will eventually hear it.

- Office Director.

What will you hear? Because you won’t hear anything from the EAP people themselves.

Don't be naive. Fed system leaks more than sinking Titanic.

I’ve been a Fed manager for 10 years and have never heard that any of my employees are using EAP, let alone the details. I know some have because they told me. But never have I heard it from anyone else. Nor should I.

I think it was Marie Louise Kelly who said, “ Keep moving forward… 1 foot in front of the other…” from what I recall.

Is the meaning of life in how you dodge lemons that sort of keep coming sometimes more than other times?

Anonymous wrote:Op I’m not sure why you’re being vague. There are 2m feds. What is your condition?? What is your job? It’s hard to tell if you’re being reasonable or not. I had a colleague who couldn’t do complex cases because it brought on her PTSD. It’s definitely in her job description the quantity and complexity of cases she did. Maybe if she were a GS 9 if would have been different but at higher grades, more is required.

Some offices can help you move around to a new role. Others will not be able to. I’m at a large cabinet level agency and I can’t give someone a new job, they’d have to apply on USA jobs.

Op here. I don’t know why I’m being vague. Some people I know read posts here. May be that’s why. What you described is a good example. That’s why it’s rough to come up with long term plan. I’m just mourning for a sudden deterioration caused by new injury-caused condition 2 that requires painkillers. With condition 1, life has become a misery. 1m off will not help. I don’t know if I’m better in 1y, so can’t do or may be I can fmla. But I’m coming up with a plan. I’m gonna be okay folks. All these posts reflect my sadness for myself bc this is formerly high performance staffer who earlier won full ride scholarships for college and grad school and all of it is done. Just like that.because, like, you fell down and got injured. But I’m getting myself out of this mental anguish by — need to hit the gym or something like that. Keep moving forward. DH is mad at me. Outright yelling me - bc he can’t see, he thinks I’m making it up. Brushes for what I say. Here I go again rambling.
I’m gonna go for a jog

Like the previous poster, it's hard to help when you are being very vague, and this is the second thread about it.

I would guess you have a mental issue and certain parts of the job give you panic attacks and insomnia.

As someone with a panic disorder who crashed and burned professionally when younger, listen to your doctor. Mental disabilities are hard because they are invisible. Getting treatment and having documentation will help you advocate better for yourself during the RA process.

As for your coworkers, they would probably rather have consistency and drive the big bus than not knowing what you can or can't do on any given day and never knowing what bus they are driving that day.

EAP will help you gather your thoughts and make an initial plan, but you have to find a longer term provider.

Op I’m not sure why you’re being vague. There are 2m feds. What is your condition?? What is your job? It’s hard to tell if you’re being reasonable or not. I had a colleague who couldn’t do complex cases because it brought on her PTSD. It’s definitely in her job description the quantity and complexity of cases she did. Maybe if she were a GS 9 if would have been different but at higher grades, more is required.

Some offices can help you move around to a new role. Others will not be able to. I’m at a large cabinet level agency and I can’t give someone a new job, they’d have to apply on USA jobs.

Anonymous wrote:

Anonymous wrote:

Anonymous wrote:EAP is confidential. Your manager should not know you are using it and certainly wouldn’t be privy to any details.

Correct statement but I will eventually hear it.

- Office Director.

What will you hear? Because you won’t hear anything from the EAP people themselves.

Don't be naive. Fed system leaks more than sinking Titanic.