Same OP. I am struggling lately.

Anonymous wrote:Normally by this time of year I have SAD, and am holding on by a thread for a week in Jamaica or Mexico. This year, I'm not sure I won't go stark raving mad. I already feel my temper fraying...

For me the bluer shade of light from the lower sun elevation, the filtered light through leafless tree branches, it feels so surreal like the beginning of a horror movie.

Can’t wait for winter solstice and the sun starting to creep higher in the sky.

Normally by this time of year I have SAD, and am holding on by a thread for a week in Jamaica or Mexico. This year, I'm not sure I won't go stark raving mad. I already feel my temper fraying...

I started Lexapro. Waiting patiently for it to kick in.

Anonymous wrote:Who has time to feel blah? Every week is a slog of work, cooking, cleaning, helping kids with school, and sheparding the youngest one till they go to school next year (daycare closed). I basically pass out on my feet doing dishes every night. Blah sounds to gentle, what word conveys frantic dread?

You can do all this and still feel blah! Like staring at the pile of dishes at the sink and thinking "why bother? No one outside this house is going to see this. Why do I care? They're just going to get dirty again tomorrow." And thinking about helping the kids with school and thinking "why? This is a shit show. Maybe he can just repeat this year."

So doing all this stuff but losing any kind of motivation and just wanting to sleep until spring when it's all over!

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Anonymous wrote:I was exhausted but now I'm very stressed. DH's coworker tested positive, high fever, too weak to get out of her room. Her roommate also tested positive. My DH just heard and is trying to find a testing site with availability tomorrow. When you get these types of news, my exhaustion disappears and anxiety while we wait results goes up the roof. This is the third time in about a month one of his coworkers tested positive hence he had to get tested. He is a contractor at a hospital. Hospital won't test people like him who are not employees and with no symptoms.

What is challenging is that the places he's gone before to get tested all have zero availability until WED. There's one pharmacy that charges $200, $350, $800 depending on how soon you want the results. Even for that, the earliest appointment is not till tomorrow evening.

We have had good luck with the free MoCo testing sites. But it’s for residents only

https://montgomerycountymd.gov/covid19/testing.html

Yes. Yes. Yes. Trying to do everything I can (exercise, eat healthy, spend positive time with family). But we are sick of each other! I’m WFH, DH is unemployed, and DD is DL full time. So over this!

Anonymous wrote:I was exhausted but now I'm very stressed. DH's coworker tested positive, high fever, too weak to get out of her room. Her roommate also tested positive. My DH just heard and is trying to find a testing site with availability tomorrow. When you get these types of news, my exhaustion disappears and anxiety while we wait results goes up the roof. This is the third time in about a month one of his coworkers tested positive hence he had to get tested. He is a contractor at a hospital. Hospital won't test people like him who are not employees and with no symptoms.

What is challenging is that the places he's gone before to get tested all have zero availability until WED. There's one pharmacy that charges $200, $350, $800 depending on how soon you want the results. Even for that, the earliest appointment is not till tomorrow evening.

I was exhausted but now I'm very stressed. DH's coworker tested positive, high fever, too weak to get out of her room. Her roommate also tested positive. My DH just heard and is trying to find a testing site with availability tomorrow. When you get these types of news, my exhaustion disappears and anxiety while we wait results goes up the roof. This is the third time in about a month one of his coworkers tested positive hence he had to get tested. He is a contractor at a hospital. Hospital won't test people like him who are not employees and with no symptoms.

Anonymous wrote:Who has time to feel blah? Every week is a slog of work, cooking, cleaning, helping kids with school, and sheparding the youngest one till they go to school next year (daycare closed). I basically pass out on my feet doing dishes every night. Blah sounds to gentle, what word conveys frantic dread?

LOL. This. I think the word is parenting in a pandemic.

I feel like a lot of people are going through many things. I usually traveled or worked from home (large % of the time) pre-pandemic and I have not dealt with COVID well as compared to my spouse. My anxiety is through the roof and it really shouldn't be, our jobs are fine, we got our kids into private schools last minute, etc. I just know things will eventually get worse economically and cant really deal with it. My spouse who went into an office everyday now works from home (my office where I now am at the table) adjusted and is just fine. Cheers to hopefully things looking up in the next few months.

Knowing I’m not alone in this makes me feel ever so slightly better.

The past two weeks have been super dark for me emotionally. I want to sleep for a week. (Not covid )

YES. What is wrong with me? Depression of some sort?

Who has time to feel blah? Every week is a slog of work, cooking, cleaning, helping kids with school, and sheparding the youngest one till they go to school next year (daycare closed). I basically pass out on my feet doing dishes every night. Blah sounds to gentle, what word conveys frantic dread?