I was never a maternal person and didn’t dream of having kids. We decided to do it after years of discussion. I love my son but I also see the life I had with out him and on bad days will sit with that life in my head. But don’t worry OP. This is an emotional thing, parenthood. You love your son. What your feeling I think a lot of people can relate to.

I find that some people are more maternal than others, and enjoy parenthood to a more or less degree than others. I am very good with children in general, and they tend to gravitate towards me, but I am not at all maternal. DD is turning out to be a lovely young lady, but she was a really difficult baby/toddler, and it absolutely did make me wonder for years, what the hell I was thinking.

One problem I have that you may or may not have, is an unsupportive spouse. As much as he loves DD, he has *terrible* parenting instincts. It’s been pretty exhausting, providing him guidance and essentially single parenting at the same time.

Are you a SAHM? Maybe you need to get busy with something so you don't have time for this weird and totally useless navel-gazing.

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Anonymous wrote:I feel the exact same way. Everyone on the outside would say I’m a great/perfect mom. On the inside, I’m thinking I would be fine if I had never been a mom.

+1. Parenthood is a societal expectation. I love my kids so much it hurts, but I could have been happy without children.

+2. Minus the art projects, that’s how I feel op. But that said, my DC is newly turned five, and I enjoy the motherhood thing more and more each day. He has a speech delay and he’s catching up a little more and can express more complex things, and I adore it. He’s so cute and innocent and full of surprises. I could NEVER have another though. Never

Anonymous wrote:

Anonymous wrote:I feel the exact same way. Everyone on the outside would say I’m a great/perfect mom. On the inside, I’m thinking I would be fine if I had never been a mom.

+1. Parenthood is a societal expectation. I love my kids so much it hurts, but I could have been happy without children.

+1

OP - this is toooo much about YOU

I think you should see a therapist

Anonymous wrote:I feel the exact same way. Everyone on the outside would say I’m a great/perfect mom. On the inside, I’m thinking I would be fine if I had never been a mom.

+1. Parenthood is a societal expectation. I love my kids so much it hurts, but I could have been happy without children.