I am a SN teacher and have been so for about 10 years.

I am a SN parent and have been so for 7 years, 3 with diagnosis.

I think the parents of my students are always judging me, and that my kiddos teachers and therapists are too. It's possible we are all a little self-conscious.

Is it just the waiting room he doesn't like or does he not like the OT or doing OT? Or does being separated from you freak him out?

OP here - thanks guys. You're right that I'm tired, constantly questioning myself and maybe feeling more judgment than is there. I also appreciate the acknowledgment that her body language is conveying something. I'll try to find a way to talk to her about it in terms of strategizing. I did mention once that he seems to for whatever reason have come to associate the waiting room with acting out and she said something along the lines of basically a classical conditioning idea. Maybe we can meet her in the hallway instead? Honestly I don't know what it is about the waiting area but he goes berserk every time he sets foot in there. There's usually only one other kid or sometimes none so it's not like he's overstimulated or anything. I think it is mostly anxiety about the transition on either end and maybe some physical discomfort too. I like the idea about also mentioning that he tends to do better one on one because in addition to making me nervous, I agree that the "audience" gives DS more attention. His teachers have pointed that out at school too - he tends to act up more when people are watching. Anyway, I'm rambling but thanks again all. This is the good side of DCUM