Sleep deprivation paired with the utter terror of being responsible for keeping a tiny creature alive...it's the worst. Like seventh circle of hell. I remember being stunned that people could sustain so many days of feeding constantly, not sleeping more than 30 minutes straight, etc. What you're going through is totally normal and like PPs said, it will get better. If you can hand off even one feeding to someone else - husband or grandma or generous friend, do it. Even a couple hours of sleep can give you the strength to carry on a few more days until supply is up and feeding evens out. I tried to pump a few minutes after every feeding to build up a little bottle for that volunteer feeding, and I also used formula here and there. Do what works for you, but try to be gentle to yourself, too. You're in a delicate state, recovering from a huge event and trying to get to know your baby. Know that there are a lot of us who won't judge if you do opt for a formula bottle to get some sleep! Good luck and congrats

it'll get better, mama!