Anonymous wrote:OP here again. I know this thread has died, and there's more interesting ones, but at the moment this is my outlet since I don't want to voice all of this to anyone yet.

I don't know what is wrong with me. We are all cute and cuddly and happy, and in the back of my mind I am thinking "this is going to really suck when we break up"- yet, I continue to love him and be happy with him and not act any differently. It's almost like I made up my mind in my head but am scared to act on it.

He is an amazing man who would never do me wrong, he's helpful, very smart, loves his family, and I know he would be a great husband and father.

I am almost 28- I shouldn't be having these immature thoughts of singledom when I am with a great man.

I will say, that he is slightly dependent on me- I make more and contribute more (to our rent, bills, etc). I own and pay for my car that he drives (or I drive him to work) since his stopped working. I do most of the cooking/cleaning (but that's my own issue and could be fixed easily). We live in walking distance to his work. If we broke up, I fear he would lose everything- everyone he knows lives in a different location (same state, just an hour away) so his support system isn't near his work/school. He couldn't rely on me for car/transp, and doesn't have the money to fix his. He wouldn't be able to find an apartment that he could afford (unless a roommate situation but he hates the idea of finding a random roommate).

Yet in the past, I've been dependent on him- but in a different capacity. Emotionally, maybe. Always wanting/needing affection, reassurance, a loving touch-- but that's changed in the past couple months. I just feel different.

If we broke up, that would be it. The end. And that gives me the most awful, awful feeling. So why do I keep having these thoughts.