Anonymous wrote:I'm angry all the time, and I can't identify why. I'm married with a 7 and 4 year old, a SAHM. Thankfully my kids are healthy, DH has a good job (tho with really very long hours - counsel at a big firm). We have a nice home. Etc.
But the last few weeks (months?) I've been really angry and I don't know why. Like for ex., taking the kids to the grocery store today when the kids are "can I have this?" and grabbing stuff when that's annoying to everyone, it makes me almost shake with anger but also sadness, like tears in my eyes. Like I can't deal, I'm losing it. I'm snappy with kids, sometimes DH. It's like my rope is FRIED. But I can't figure out what I feel angry at.
I exercise a few times a week, eat pretty healthily. I try to sleep well but often wake up multiple times per night (though fall asleep ok). I even got bloodowrk checking thyroid and that's fine, as are other things like Vit D. I seem healthy. Please help me, I don't know what's wrong with me.
You are getting a lot of suggestions to think about depression and I'm worried that your mind will snap to the points in your first sentence -- stable marriage, healthy kids, financially secure, nice house -- and you'll get down on yourself for not being content with the good things you have. Then you might push yourself to feel happy which will only make you feel more stressed. Don't fall into that cycle/trap. Depression is chemical and happens to people with great lives and shitty lives. If it's depression, it's not you, it's it. If it's just chemical, drugs can help.
On the other hand, as some other PP"s suggested, there could be things in your life with which you are not satisfied but you are suppressing because you feel pressured to be happy with all you have (maybe DH's long hours, maybe the grind of being a SAHM (even if you are happy with your choice, there are still long days and it's a lot of work), maybe something else entirely like your relationshp with family/sick parent/estranged friend/anything). In that case, talk therapy can help to get to the root of it and deal with it. And, maybe meds, too.
Good luck. I think it's great you are a) holding on b) recognzing you and your family deserves for you to feel better and c) reaching out.