Anonymous wrote:At the moment, I'm not even excited about the prospect of being a parent. I do know that it is what I want, so I'm going to keep going, but there is no excitement. Not dread either.

This is exactly what I feel. After all the ups and downs, I really can't bring back the excitement I once had about the prospect of being a mother. But I'm continuing in the faith that if/when it happens, the emotions will catch up.

OP, best of luck to you.

OP, I had several ups and downs. Heartbeats, no heartbeats, m/c, etc. Finally got a positive, but didn't truly feel elated until that beautiful baby was in my arms. Stay positive!!

I just had a m/c, second one, but this time after I heard the heartbeat, I relaxed. . . and then the next appointment, no heartbeat.

I had PTSD from last year's m/c, thought I was finally done, but no, this was much more traumatic than that loss, which was earlier.

I am recovered physically, and still going to keep trying, but I am also numb, and I know I will not be happy about pregnancy for one minute.

At the moment, I'm not even excited about the prospect of being a parent. I do know that it is what I want, so I'm going to keep going, but there is no excitement. Not dread either.

I was advised to harden my heart, but numbness is not as comforting as I expected.

10:46 - first, congrats! Secondly, you are allowed to be cautious. I think so many of us are practicing self preservation when it comes to this issue.

You will get there.

I hope you have a happy and healthy 9 months.