OP, want to give you a hug! We TTC for 3 years, failed IVF, etc, the whole journey. When I saw the two lines I was delirious with joy and worry, and ... well, fast forward 10 months, and the joy and worry have never stopped!

As far as when it feels more real: for us, with every step closer, I guess!
After my home preg test I thought it was too good to be true. My husband even said I was imagining the lines of the 10 preg tests I laid out for him - LOL!
The first beta at the RE: yes, it's real, but will it 'stick'?
The heartbeat on the 6 wk sono was a big one for us! ... at the same time you 'graduate' to your OB.
It felt more and more real then with every sono, every 'congratulations', with every ritual such as walking through a baby store to register, ...and you mentally check off your milestones: made it through first trimester, found out gender, first movement, third trimester, viability (that was also a big one for me)...
But nothing, nothing beats the moment when that little baby finally comes out!

So Congratulations!!! That worry is normal, as I said, never stops, and at the same time a sign that you are becoming a mom!

Anonymous wrote:Hey guys! thanks for checking back.

So - the blood part first. I believe it was related to the progesterone suppositories. I was on the Prometrium suppository, then they called in the Endometrium which is the pill looking thing that comes with an applicator that you use to insert. I had no issues with it for the first few days, then I would notice the leftover liquid that came out of me was burning me. When I saw the blood, I panicked. But then when I kept trying to put in the Endometrium it was hurting me. The doctor switched me to a pill and so far so good. No more blood. Phew.

The ultrasound was yesterday. I'm 6.5 weeks - and there is one heartbeat! We thought we would have twins because my beta was so high but it's just a singleton. I feel better that everyone seems to be saying this is a very strong pregnancy. But it doesn't take away all the fears. I guess as time goes on it gets easier?

I just need to stop googling for information because I keep finding boards where women lost a baby at 4 months or something awful like that! Must. stop!

Great news! I don't know why - after so many years on DCUM I never really think about any of the people here....but I was thinking about you and hoping you'd come back to update us. I'm so happy you saw a HB! Good luck to you and hope this calms your nerves a bit.

Stay away from the internet for a bit....maybe watch TLC? I spend the first 20 week watching I didn't know I was pregnant and hating those women. It was a very good distraction. You'll be SHOCKED how fast the 1st trimester will go.

OP here. I was just telling a friend who is a few weeks ahead of me and also in the freakout boat, "wait till they are born. Then the real fear starts."

OP, I opened your thread not paying attention to which board it was on. I'm happy for you and hope for another 34 uneventful weeks for you.

If it makes you feel any better, you are not alone. I was blessed to have one miscarriage and then a healthy pregnancy, with no fertility issues. That one miscarriage was enough to make me live in fear of a miscarriage, a stillbirth, a child with disabilities. And as PPs said, then they're born and you worry about SIDS. And then about them running into the street. And all the scary bad people in the world.

Truly, I'm not making light of it. I'm saying that those two pink lines didn't just mean I was expecting a baby, they meant I would have life-long reasons to worry about the health and happiness of this tiny creature that I love more than any other. Maybe it's not reassuring to say that the fear doesn't ever go away, it just morphs based on where you are between embryo and 25yr old child. Best of luck to you.

Awesome. Congrats to you and your dh.

Hey guys! thanks for checking back.

So - the blood part first. I believe it was related to the progesterone suppositories. I was on the Prometrium suppository, then they called in the Endometrium which is the pill looking thing that comes with an applicator that you use to insert. I had no issues with it for the first few days, then I would notice the leftover liquid that came out of me was burning me. When I saw the blood, I panicked. But then when I kept trying to put in the Endometrium it was hurting me. The doctor switched me to a pill and so far so good. No more blood. Phew.

The ultrasound was yesterday. I'm 6.5 weeks - and there is one heartbeat! We thought we would have twins because my beta was so high but it's just a singleton. I feel better that everyone seems to be saying this is a very strong pregnancy. But it doesn't take away all the fears. I guess as time goes on it gets easier?

I just need to stop googling for information because I keep finding boards where women lost a baby at 4 months or something awful like that! Must. stop!

OP. How did your ultrasound go?

any news op? I spotted early on in both pregnancies. With the first (an m/c) the spotting was bright red and turned to real bleeding and cramping within 12 hours. With pregnancy #2, well, he just threw a typical toddler tantrum this morning. That time it was more brownish than red, and happened on and off a few times, maybe up to 16 weeks. And yes, I was convinced each time that the pg was a 'no go.'

anyway, I just wanted to say that it is completely normal to feel the way you do--you've been through a lot, and facing a loss is so hard to comprehend that being numb is a protective measure. And its fine. Even if you go through the whole pregnancy nervous and you don't "bond" in utero the way you feel you "should', its not going to matter--the baby will be fine even if s/he didn't get mozart played to him/her every night! Just take care of yourself--eating, sleeping, and I recommend yoga as a way of being gentle and connected with your body and a helpful mind calmer. No need to worry bout amnio, etc, now--and don't listen to your fertility nurse friend--when the time comes, your ob should be able to guide you down that path (I will say that you were also probably misinformed--yes, its possible to get soft markers for downs but in fact the child is fine--however an amnio is certain, but there are also non invasive tests that can help you make a decision about whether to do an invasive test).

My experience was identical to 17:04 poster - after my second pregnancy ended in miscarriage, it took me a while to get pregnant again. When I finally got that positive test, I was excited for maybe that first day, and after that I was terrified. It didn't help that I had a lot of bleeding on and off for the first 4 months, and two very scary, miscarriage like episodes.

I am starting to calm down a little now at 23 weeks, but honestly, this anxiety over something bad happening to my child never goes away for me, I think it comes with the territory and you just learn to not let it consume your thoughts. Whether it's during pregnancy or after when you are afraid they will fall and break something, or choke on something, or get sick, it's always something. The best approach I have come up with is to try and redirect your thoughts to something completely different. And the best thing you can do for yourself (and the hardest) is to try and stay calm and positive.

Best wishes for a healthy pregnancy OP!!

Thanks all. Truly. I'm just so freaked because my body is pretty reliable - never bled between cycles, etc.

It did stop for now. I'm laying around though. Maybe I did too much running around today.

OP - I had terrible spotting/bleeding on my IVF twin pregnancy. It started at 5.5wks and was on and off for about a week. Both babies were fine. Pregnancy was fine. It happens in many cases. It was so traumatic after getting the BFP, so I know exactly how you feel. Just hang in there.

OP, I spotted for 3 days (dark brown old blood) right around that time too. I didn't know I was pregnant, I thought I was starting my period. 5 days later I was staring at a positive test, and two weeks later at a heartbeat! It seems so long to wait, but think positive, and stay off google! I just put my 9 mo down for the night, so obviously spotting early on is not always a bad thing! Good luck

Good luck OP!

Anonymous wrote:This is dark brown blood - is that normal? I guess everyone's different, but just went to the bathroom again and it's still there.

Dark brown sounds like old blood. That's better than bright red blood. Call and check with your doctor, but you should be ok.

This is dark brown blood - is that normal? I guess everyone's different, but just went to the bathroom again and it's still there.