Anonymous
Post 12/12/2025 14:47     Subject: What have you failed at?
Every day I fail. I fail to get my steps in. I fail to get my work done — to get that project finished and that other project started. I fail to be the beatific warm mother full of grace that I want to be. I fail to go to yoga. I fail to return that text, and that email, and that phone call. All of these quotidian failures add up to a cumulative failure — to be the kind of person who was Reaching Her Full Potential or whatever.

But what if they’re not failures? Or at least not failures with a capital F? What if they’re just an imperfect person moving through a noisy, imperfect world?

And by extension, what if your situation isn’t a failure either? What if, in fact, you kept your marriage going longer than a lot of other people would have? What if you learned about yourself, and marriage, in the process and are going to someday, in some way, use what you learned? What if that’s as simple as this: someday you will be kind to a person who is in a dark place? This is small, but at the same time it is everything.

I don’t know. Sometimes I think we beat ourselves up as a way of proving to ourselves that we care. But the caring already exists, it’s there whether we beat ourselves up or not. So what if you didn’t beat yourself up quite as much?

I wish you safety, good health, sparks of joy, and most of all ease living in this world — exactly as you are.
Anonymous
Post 12/12/2025 14:42     Subject: What have you failed at?
Despite coming from a family of skinnies who are good cooks, I can’t seem to master either and I think my mental block on both is related.
Anonymous
Post 12/12/2025 14:23     Subject: What have you failed at?
Getting out of my own way!
Anonymous
Post 12/12/2025 13:46     Subject: What have you failed at?
Anonymous wrote:I think I failed at my lifelong attempt to “fit in” with the people I wanted to fit in with.

I think it was a video clip of Chris Farley arriving for a David Letterman interview in this wildly frantic way, which made me also think of Robin Williams. Trying so hard to dance as fast as they could (literally) that they could never settle into their selves when among people.

I think I’m in that category. Always trying to play at normal, when I never was.

When Robin Williams ever did serious roles he became so visibly calm and centered, but also there were windows into a deep personal depression.


I relate to this post, very much.
Anonymous
Post 12/12/2025 13:38     Subject: Re:What have you failed at?
Anonymous wrote:So many things! My career is essentially a failure -- I have a job but the money I spent on a graduate degree and my early ambitions were totally for nothing. When I talk to friends from grad school and right after about work, I can see the bewilderment that I am where I am. But I just flamed out -- I wasn't good enough, didn't have the energy, and couldn't cut it. I feel fortunate to have a steady paycheck doing work that isn't physically taxing. I'm rounding on 50 and have to accept it's as far as I'm ever going to get in this career.

I have some ambition to maybe start a small business or pursue a second career in a less competitive field once my kid's college is taken care of and I can take that kind of risk.

I also had a huge social failure about 10 years ago I'm still recovering from. Not romantic -- I had a falling out with a friend and almost everyone in our mutual friend group took her side. It was really brutal -- a ton of rejection all at once. In the midst of my career sputtering out, it was a really tough time. I got depressed, when to therapy, and really struggled for several years.

To be honest, this stuff still stings a little bit. But I have a nice life now. My job is small but it has its satisfactions (and perks -- the one thing about having a job that is no big deal is that it leaves you with a lot of bandwidth to pursue other passions, including parenting). I have a good group of friends and I also learned I'm more resilient than I thought, and also that even if other people don't like me, I can still love myself.

I find the Mary Oliver poem Wild Geese to be encouraging. Good luck, OP!


I'm sorry. This happened to me as well. Very painful.
Anonymous
Post 12/12/2025 13:36     Subject: What have you failed at?
You are ok. Probably more than ok.

I have failed sooooo many times.

I studied acting undergrad, wanted to be a professional actress. Failed. Not for lack of talent and training, but because I was a personal mess. Worked as a model. Failed. Got dumped by my agency for being stupid (declined a fur show because I didn't "believe in" that, and they don't care about your beliefs lol). Went to law school, did really well, got a great job, did really well, found it too tiring and quit after 7 years. So essentially ... Failed. Went to a think tank. Couldn't handle the stress. Hated it. So Failed there. Left to go to grad school. Fancied myself a talented writer. Got my MFA ten years ago. No book. Not yet. Probably not ever. Failed again.

Fail, fail, fail, fail, fail...

But at the same time it has somehow worked out. Life is failure. If you aren't failing, you aren't doing anything of value. What did Becket say? "Ever tried. Ever failed. No matter. Try again. Fail again. Fail better."
Anonymous
Post 12/12/2025 12:39     Subject: What have you failed at?
I think I failed at my lifelong attempt to “fit in” with the people I wanted to fit in with.

I think it was a video clip of Chris Farley arriving for a David Letterman interview in this wildly frantic way, which made me also think of Robin Williams. Trying so hard to dance as fast as they could (literally) that they could never settle into their selves when among people.

I think I’m in that category. Always trying to play at normal, when I never was.

When Robin Williams ever did serious roles he became so visibly calm and centered, but also there were windows into a deep personal depression.
Anonymous
Post 11/20/2025 21:56     Subject: What have you failed at?
Anonymous wrote:
Anonymous wrote:As someone who is recently separated from her husband… I feel like a complete and utter failure. I’m so embarrassed and feel so stupid for messing up the most important decision of my life.

But I’m trying to re-evaluate my failure and look at it instead as information or am experiment from which I gathered important data and information with which I can make better decisions.

I’d like to hear stories from others about failure. What do you do that failed? How did you learn from it and turn your life around? Or did it destroy you?


Hey, darling, I know you're asking people to commiserate with you, but if you're open to some unsolicited advice, keep reading...

Life’s not a straight shot down a sunlit highway. It’s switchbacks, dirt roads, and a couple potholes big enough to swallow your front tire if you’re not looking. Separation? Divorce? That's not a verdict on your worth. That’s just one chapter in the big ol’ mystery novel of you.

See, people think failure is this big red X stamped on your forehead. But failure, real, honest-to-God failure, is just a data point. Information. Like you said: an experiment. It’s the universe handing you a field report on what didn’t work so you can carve out what will.

I’ve fallen on my face more times than I care to count. Jobs I shouldn’t have taken. Friends I trusted who weren’t meant to ride shotgun. Days I woke up and didn’t recognize the man in the mirror. But every time I thought the story was over…turns out it was just the midpoint.

You didn’t mess up your life. You lived it. Boldly. And now you’ve got more clarity, more courage, and more truth than you had before.

So here’s the thing:
Don’t call yourself stupid. Don’t call yourself a failure. Call yourself a work in progress. Call yourself unfinished. Call yourself someone who’s still learning the shape of her own heart.

And you want stories? Everybody’s got a failure story. Some folks let it bury them. And some, the ones who learn, who listen, who keep going, they use it as fertilizer. Grow something new out of it. Something honest.

You’re not destroyed.
You’re recalibrating.
And that… that’s a beautiful place to be.

Keep living.


Love this!
Anonymous
Post 11/20/2025 21:19     Subject: What have you failed at?
Anonymous wrote:As someone who is recently separated from her husband… I feel like a complete and utter failure. I’m so embarrassed and feel so stupid for messing up the most important decision of my life.

But I’m trying to re-evaluate my failure and look at it instead as information or am experiment from which I gathered important data and information with which I can make better decisions.

I’d like to hear stories from others about failure. What do you do that failed? How did you learn from it and turn your life around? Or did it destroy you?


Hey, darling, I know you're asking people to commiserate with you, but if you're open to some unsolicited advice, keep reading...

Life’s not a straight shot down a sunlit highway. It’s switchbacks, dirt roads, and a couple potholes big enough to swallow your front tire if you’re not looking. Separation? Divorce? That's not a verdict on your worth. That’s just one chapter in the big ol’ mystery novel of you.

See, people think failure is this big red X stamped on your forehead. But failure, real, honest-to-God failure, is just a data point. Information. Like you said: an experiment. It’s the universe handing you a field report on what didn’t work so you can carve out what will.

I’ve fallen on my face more times than I care to count. Jobs I shouldn’t have taken. Friends I trusted who weren’t meant to ride shotgun. Days I woke up and didn’t recognize the man in the mirror. But every time I thought the story was over…turns out it was just the midpoint.

You didn’t mess up your life. You lived it. Boldly. And now you’ve got more clarity, more courage, and more truth than you had before.

So here’s the thing:
Don’t call yourself stupid. Don’t call yourself a failure. Call yourself a work in progress. Call yourself unfinished. Call yourself someone who’s still learning the shape of her own heart.

And you want stories? Everybody’s got a failure story. Some folks let it bury them. And some, the ones who learn, who listen, who keep going, they use it as fertilizer. Grow something new out of it. Something honest.

You’re not destroyed.
You’re recalibrating.
And that… that’s a beautiful place to be.

Keep living.
Anonymous
Post 11/19/2025 20:41     Subject: What have you failed at?
Before I remarried ten years ago, I felt a deep shame at having failed at marriage. Now I understand better that the marriage never had a shot at succeeding and if I was to feel bad about anything, it was the years I tried to make it work by changing myself.
Anonymous
Post 11/19/2025 20:27     Subject: What have you failed at?
I failed at my career. I was very passionated and even received a prestigious international award but I was bad at workplace politics and sided against the wrong person during an internal dispute. The person was livid and when they had the chance they used their power in this (relatively small) field to undermine my reputation. Around the same time I had also some personal and family issues and I was never able to rebound. This was a long time ago but still hurts. This is my boulevard of broken dreams
Anonymous
Post 11/19/2025 19:18     Subject: What have you failed at?
I can't even think about the marriage right now. I love my kids, so some good came out of it.

But, I went from 135lbs years ago to 233. I can't believe I was 233. I couldn't lose it after trying for years and feel like a failure for needing a GLP1. It is still work but I am currently back on track and moving in the right direction at 185.
Anonymous
Post 11/19/2025 18:51     Subject: What have you failed at?
Anonymous wrote:I'd encourage you to change the framing - I don't even know you and I thought 'that's my friend you're talking about.' Consider replacing 'It didn't work out' with 'I failed at the marriage.'


+1

Also: "I made a good decision given where I was and the information I had at the time."
Anonymous
Post 11/19/2025 18:39     Subject: Re:What have you failed at?
Anonymous wrote:
Anonymous wrote:So many things! My career is essentially a failure -- I have a job but the money I spent on a graduate degree and my early ambitions were totally for nothing. When I talk to friends from grad school and right after about work, I can see the bewilderment that I am where I am. But I just flamed out -- I wasn't good enough, didn't have the energy, and couldn't cut it. I feel fortunate to have a steady paycheck doing work that isn't physically taxing. I'm rounding on 50 and have to accept it's as far as I'm ever going to get in this career.

I have some ambition to maybe start a small business or pursue a second career in a less competitive field once my kid's college is taken care of and I can take that kind of risk.

I also had a huge social failure about 10 years ago I'm still recovering from. Not romantic -- I had a falling out with a friend and almost everyone in our mutual friend group took her side. It was really brutal -- a ton of rejection all at once. In the midst of my career sputtering out, it was a really tough time. I got depressed, when to therapy, and really struggled for several years.

To be honest, this stuff still stings a little bit. But I have a nice life now. My job is small but it has its satisfactions (and perks -- the one thing about having a job that is no big deal is that it leaves you with a lot of bandwidth to pursue other passions, including parenting). I have a good group of friends and I also learned I'm more resilient than I thought, and also that even if other people don't like me, I can still love myself.

I find the Mary Oliver poem Wild Geese to be encouraging. Good luck, OP!


Wow. Thank you for your heartfelt and thoughtful post. Your kids and employer should be grateful to have you!! I’m feeling kinda stuck for my next step and this note is inspiring. Thank you!


I'm really glad I could help! One thing about failing is that it's made me very empathetic towards people who are "in process" and I try to channel that in positive ways. I have this idea I want to do some kind of teaching/coaching as a second career.
Anonymous
Post 11/19/2025 18:32     Subject: Re:What have you failed at?
Anonymous wrote:So many things! My career is essentially a failure -- I have a job but the money I spent on a graduate degree and my early ambitions were totally for nothing. When I talk to friends from grad school and right after about work, I can see the bewilderment that I am where I am. But I just flamed out -- I wasn't good enough, didn't have the energy, and couldn't cut it. I feel fortunate to have a steady paycheck doing work that isn't physically taxing. I'm rounding on 50 and have to accept it's as far as I'm ever going to get in this career.

I have some ambition to maybe start a small business or pursue a second career in a less competitive field once my kid's college is taken care of and I can take that kind of risk.

I also had a huge social failure about 10 years ago I'm still recovering from. Not romantic -- I had a falling out with a friend and almost everyone in our mutual friend group took her side. It was really brutal -- a ton of rejection all at once. In the midst of my career sputtering out, it was a really tough time. I got depressed, when to therapy, and really struggled for several years.

To be honest, this stuff still stings a little bit. But I have a nice life now. My job is small but it has its satisfactions (and perks -- the one thing about having a job that is no big deal is that it leaves you with a lot of bandwidth to pursue other passions, including parenting). I have a good group of friends and I also learned I'm more resilient than I thought, and also that even if other people don't like me, I can still love myself.

I find the Mary Oliver poem Wild Geese to be encouraging. Good luck, OP!


Wow. Thank you for your heartfelt and thoughtful post. Your kids and employer should be grateful to have you!! I’m feeling kinda stuck for my next step and this note is inspiring. Thank you!