Anonymous wrote:OP here. Thank you for all the suggestions. It’s been such a struggle. Going to talk to my PCP about ADHD meds and try out the podcasts and books PPs have mentioned.
DH and our tween have no issues with control. I asked them a couple of days ago to please not bring sweets or processed foods into the house for awhile. Guess what’s on the counter and in the fridge after DH’s trip to the store yesterday?! It wasn’t intentional to hurt me, obviously; he truly just somehow didn’t realize what he’d bought was problematic—likely because he doesn’t really understand the full truth of what I’m experiencing. Still tried cold turkey yesterday and binged while straightening the kitchen before bed. It’s like I had some kind of a nightmarish out of body experience that left me feeling horribly ashamed (and sick to my stomach) afterwards.
I recently realized I binge in the evenings. It happens because I make a dinner the kids will eat I don’t like (I have a kid with extreme picky eating who has been in and out of feeding therapy for years). We also eat about 4-5 hours before I go to bed so I’m an actually a little hungry. But I eat junk. It’s either nothing or a bunch, like an amount I’d be embarrassed for others to know about. I hate it. I have been thinking about maybe working with a therapist but getting the label of a binge eater would be really uncomfortable