I'm sorry Emma.

Anonymous wrote:Emma, any news? I am thinking about you and wanted to thank you for your kind words. I'll update soon -Kay

Well it is officially the end of the road for me for this cycle. After several days of minimal increases to my beta, I went in for bloodwork and ultrasound yesterday and the doctor couldn't find a sac in the uterus. The concern was that it might be an ectopic because while the hcg numbers weren't doubling, they were still increasing. But yesterday the numbers finally started to drop which indicates this was a chemical pregnancy and not an ectopic. I go back Tuesday for follow up bloodwork to make sure the numbers continue to drop. I don't have to take methatrexate (sp?) and just have to let this pass on its own. I have three frozen from this round for which I am very grateful. But I'm not sure when I'll be able to start the next cycle as I have travel plans in June which might delay things.

Thank you all for your support and kind words through this process. Kay -- I would still love to hear updates and will be thinking of you. Kelly -- have you started your FET cycle yet? And for all those who continue this difficult journey, the very best of luck to you. Hoping that whatever happens, we can all find our true happiness.

Emma, any news? I am thinking about you and wanted to thank you for your kind words. I'll update soon -Kay

Hey Emma -- Thinking of you today

Emma here -- I transferred two 5-day blasts. But my nurse really sounded pretty negative on the phone which I appreciate, I guess. I wouldn't want to be given a false sense of hope. I don't know enough about betas, but from everything I've read/heard, they need to rise at least 60-70 percent, if not double. The numbers on Friday will be pretty telling but for now I'm definitely going to temper my expectations.

Emma- how many embryos did you transfer? Is it possible you lost a twin? Fingers crossed for you!

Emma again -- bad news today. My beta numbers barely rised so it's not looking good. First beta was 539 which was great but in two days, it only went up to 578. My nurse seemed pretty negative about it on the phone but said that the doc wants me to continue taking the meds for two more days and test again Friday. I'm really discouraged and broke down when I got home. So two more days of anxiety, stress and a roller coaster of emotions for me. But at this point, I'm expecting the worst.

Kay, I'm truly so happy for you. I love hearing your updates. I hope you're feeling well and that the migraines have gone away. I just had one on Sunday which knocked me out. Take good care of yourself and keep us posted on how things progress with you!

I'm sorry Sue. I hope you are able to recover and rejoin us on this journey. It has been a wonderful group of women. Please let us know how you are doing when you can/if it feels right. I'll be thinking about you.

Emma- that is great news! Please let us know how tomorrow goes! What was the first beta? Try to breathe and relax if you can (easier said than done).

I had my first U/s today. I had been a ball of nerves because I had been sick for a week and then the symptoms went away and I had a 3-day migraine, which only happens when my hormones go way out of whack, but I'm happy to report we saw a HB and they baby measured on target. I still can't let go of the nerves from one appointment to the next. My next appointment is in a couple of weeks. -Kay

Sue, I am so sorry to hear the news. You are in my thoughts. I know no words will ever be able to take away the emotional and physical pain you are enduring but know that we are here for you -- even if it is anonymously. I'm so sorry.

Sue -- I hope you don't have much physical discomfort the next few days. And I want you to know that it's very clear from how you express yourself just here on this forum that you are a wonderful person and will find plenty of joy, beauty, and wonderful things in life. No matter what they are and how they come.

Sue--truly sorry for you and wish you strength.

Sue- many hugs for you. I'm so sorry for your loss.

Sad news, I'm afraid. No heartbeat today and no growth. I'm inducing the miscarriage with misoprostol this afternoon.

I appreciate all the support here-- it's been so encouraging and wonderful to be a part of a community of supportive women. Even if anonymously. Or maybe especially if anonymously! Because that means there are women out there everywhere who share your struggle, and who are there for you even when you don't always know it. And women who rely on your strength and support sometimes.

Good luck everyone!

--Sue

Emma here. BFP for me! While I am so happy, I am being very guarded with my emotions as I know I'm not out of the woods. I'm still in shock. Second beta will be Wednesday and I'm just praying the numbers double. How is everyone else doing? Kay and Sue, any updates?

any update ladies?!