Anonymous wrote:I also would appreciate a reading. Maybe with a focus on energy around my relationships.
Thank you for doing this OP
Hello! When I envision you in my mind, I see a white light glowing in your chest. I feel you have a big heart, so much love to give, and that you desire intimacy with those that you love. Yet at the same time, there is a sense of emotional unavailability. You want love and intimacy, yet when you do have it, you block it and don't allow it in. I feel because you love so much and with such intensity, you block it so that you won't get hurt. That causes you to keep people at an arms length. I feel a lot of this is subconscious, but somewhat recently you may be sensing this for yourself...which is actually a good thing. Self awareness is a big first step.
The cards that I pulled are Gentleness, Trust, Mental Conflict and the tarot cards The Chariot reversed, 5 of Swords, and the 4 of Pentacles.
There is a lot of internal conflict I feel within you when it comes to relationships. As it is, for the time being, I don't see too much of a shift. However, I believe if you can find at least one person who you really feel drawn to and slowly, gently, let them in, allow yourself to trust them, you will see some changes start to happen sooner rather than later. On the bottom of the deck I have Judgement, The Moon in reverse, and the 5 of Pentacles in reverse. I am feeling that should you choose to allow people in (at your own pace!), there will be an awakening for you that will cause a positive shift throughout all areas of your life. I feel you will get to the root cause of the blockage, eradicate it, and allow everyone to see just how bright you really shine.
I hope this resonates!