Anonymous wrote:One day you will realize that it wasn't me; the only one who truly loved you, despite the drama and your ever-present lack of affection towards me.
It wasn't your APs either. Yes, the ones that treated you like a whore and dumped you once your drama became too much.
Nor your friends and family. You are the one who isolated yourself with them.
It is you.
You are selfish.
You never have enough, and are always looking for something better
You feel that the whole world is out to get you.
It isn't.
One day you will realize this. You will realize who those people are that stand by you irregardless of your drama and anger, the ones who still love you even though you have repeatedly crapped on them.
One day.
But I may no longer be there for you by then.
OP, you sound really hurt, and I am truly sorry about that.
But the bolded shows that you need to forget your ex and start asking yourself why you ended up with such a shitty person. You SURELY have some trauma/issues from your own background that landed you in this situation. Please examine that, and learn to make things different going forward. Who cares about this bish? You need to learn how to create the future and relationship dynamics you deserve.