I feel your pain, friend. We had to hide our knife block after ds started throwing them at us. He has also climbed up on the roof and threatened to jump off. I can't take him anywhere on public without my DH if he is having a bad day bc I can't physically control him anymore.

Where do you live? There are often mental health crisis numbers that can connect you to emergency resources.

Anonymous wrote:OP here - thanks for the kind words and support. As normal, he calmed down and went into full on tears and saying he wanted to die because he was the problem and hated himself. It is so heartbreaking to see your own child like this. It is a tiring journey.

My son does this too it's exhausting and so hard for everyone

Anonymous wrote:OP here - thanks for the kind words and support. As normal, he calmed down and went into full on tears and saying he wanted to die because he was the problem and hated himself. It is so heartbreaking to see your own child like this. It is a tiring journey.

Im so sorry. You sound like a loving Mom and my heart goes out to you both

This sounds incredibly hard on all of you. Have you tried acupuncture at all? Not to sound hokey, but Spring time for some reason amps up other issues like anxiety, etc. and acupuncture during this season tends to help me. Good luck

Such a sad situation to be in. I cannot even imagine how hard this must be.

Big hugs to you, OP. Is he currently on Abilify? Does it not work consistently? He sounds like my child. In process of diagnosing. But once his rage is over he cries and apologizes and tells me how much he loves me. It's very hard.

There should be local mental health crisis resources you can call in--is he in a regular school placement?

Wow, I'm so sorry, OP. I'm concerned that one day he might permanently maim or kill you, his brother, or somebody else. If you feel that could happen, you really need to pressure the psychiatrist for another solution, or, like PP said, have him admitted to the hospital.

My late FIL had bipolar disorder. I only met him when he was in his 60s, when he had been stable and functional on meds for decades. At some point, your son will stabilize too!

OP here - thanks for the kind words and support. As normal, he calmed down and went into full on tears and saying he wanted to die because he was the problem and hated himself. It is so heartbreaking to see your own child like this. It is a tiring journey.

We deal with similar though no Dx yet my heart aches for your family and for him. Just sending support.

My brother was in and out of hospitals for 6 years through middle and high school to manage his bipolar disorder. Many of those stays were a month long followed by daily out patient care for another month. It was difficult to get his meds right, he needed to be on them a few weeks to even see a change, he needed therapy.

One stay last fall didn't cut it. He just punched you, so you know he's manic now. Pack a bag for him and take him to the emergency room. He will be admitted. If you do it today, he won't even begin treatment until Monday so he will spend an extended period under hospital observation and treatment.

Anonymous wrote:His therapists need to help you put a plan in place to deal with this level of behavior.

This part of the advice sent with love and kindness.

His therapists need to help you put a plan in place to deal with this level of behavior. You can't all just cower in terror, you know?

Sorry OP = that sounds crazy hard. Not sure what the solution is but you seem to know what you are doing - keep doing it and reaching out to professionals.

I have an almost 12 year old son with bipolar and when his meds are good, he is such a sweet boy with a heart of gold. When the meds are off it is terrifying. As a consequence of genetics and abilify, he weighs over 160 pounds and is 5 foot 5. He can do real damage. When raging he has broken windows and doors. He has a hard time every spring and just blew up and punched me. His little brother is (justifiably) terrified as the older one ramps up and escapes to a neighbors for safety. He was hospitalized in the Fall and it was the most horrible experience for everyone. Just don't know how I'm going to keep riding this out. Sorry. Just needed to vent.