So sorry, OP and 22:18. Hugs to you both.

I'm so sorry, OP. Thinking of you tonight and sending you big hugs. Wish I could do more.

I have a great memory of my mil who is one of the kindest loving persons, Who accepted me completely into her family, when she first met my parents, it was a dinner at their house and we walked into the doorway and both mothers hugged and started crying. I have that as a perfect memory, can see the flowers in the background can smell the roast in the kitchen. Everyone was so happy. So long ago. Now she can't remember what happens 5 mins ago and slowly gets worse. Meanwhile the other mom will be gone in a few months with painful tumors I have been through the hospice for terminal painful cancer and I want to run away

Big hug, OP.

Try to take care of yourself. You sound like you may need an anti-depressant and a support group.

If you have a parent who is terminal, seek some hospice care to give you some respite.

Feeling very lonely tonight. Our marriage is f'cked both fathers gone one mother gone with Alzheimer's and other one sick and terminal. I am scared to go thru this again. Did it with one parent already. I can't do it again

Really not sure what is the point anymore

Go to work and the group I work with my manager gives me crap about not working on the correct things First day back after dealing with terminal cancer and hospital and ct scans and radiation treatments. The internal client I work with loves me and wants to hire me and the group was so nice today but my immediate manager is trying to get rid of me. My parent is terminal In a few months and she is talking about how I should do my work with more effort and actually it changes every month base on what he is getting crap for

I don't know how I ended up in this hellhole. I used to be very happy but now it is just a barren wasteland of well it doesn't matter

And I feel helpless to help my family which is what really matters