Anonymous wrote:Feel free to get some shit off your chest too. I just need to say this somewhere.
I am about to become homeless. I just paid August's rent, and I have about 180 left to get through the next month. My unemployment and savings have run out. I have not been able to get a job in over a year and a half. It causes me practically crippling depression. My self-care is for shit. My last shower was a week before this past Thursday. I can't manage to brush my teeth twice a day most days. I try really hard to get outside for an hour-long walk each evening and make it most days. I re-wear the same clothes because I can't afford to waste money on laundry. Tomorrow I need to apply for food stamps. Next weekend is my SIL's baby shower. It's far away, and I basically asked the hosts if there's anyone attending who lives in walking distance of me that I can catch a ride with, because otherwise I can't afford to get there. Thank god I already have a present. I am NOT looking forward to this baby shower at all. All my SIL's friends and other family are well off and comfortable. There will be TONS of talk about people's vacations they've had and are going on, trips, acquisitions, etc. I can not remember the last time I ate out. I'm having all sorts of physical ailments that I think are directly related to stress - like the other night I woke up at 1am with such a bad headache I was crying for over three hours.
The worst part is, this is chronic. I suck at holding onto a job. I usually last about a year or year and a half. It's pure awful luck. Two places closed, one place laid me off. But regardless of reasons, my resume looks like shit. And I think there's a small part of me that doesn't even WANT to get a job, because I know that whenever I do, a year to 18 months from then I'll just be right back in this spot - out of work, once again hiding in my shitty apartment, waiting to become homeless. I have some really nice Tupperware if anyone wants it. I don't think there'll be much use for it on the streets.
Find a 'hook' (mental illness, disease, compelling personal narrative) and then start a gofund me.