Hugs to you, OP! I know every situation is different, but my niece was very similar. She was on Wellbutrin as a child. Now she is a productive adult and seems to be happy (from what I can tell form the outside).

Hugs op. I'd like to reiterate getting help for yourself. I can't imagine how you manage. Don't do this alone. Hoping for the best for you and your dd.

OP here - thanks to everyone for the kind and supportive words. Yesterday was a hard day.

Have you tried the National Alliance on Mental Illness (NAMI)? There are parent support groups in the area.

http://www.nami.org

I'm sure you've tried everything but putting this out there -- have you tried DBT?

Please get some help for yourself. I can't imagine what you're going through, but it couldn't hurt to have someone to talk to. My thoughts are with you.

OP, I am so sorry. You must be sick about this. I haven't dealt with this in my child, but with my sister—and I remember being at the same point, with this feeling of inevitability. I know this has been a long road for you, but things CAN change. I couldn't imagine that I would ever see a happy and healthy version of my sister, but slowly, it happened. Your daughter has you in her corner, and that is HUGE. Agree with PP—please try to find a professional that you can talk with, because living with this can beat you down so completely. Hugs to you—hang in there.

Please talk to someone, meaning a professional. I can't imagine how stressful this would be.

You are doing everything you can. Big hug.

My DD first mentioned suicide at age 5. At age 12, she still struggles with thoughts of suicide. She sees a psyciatrist and psychologist, and is on medication. I feel so helpless. No matter what I do, I can't make her feel happy or good about herself. I feel like this is inevitable, and all I can do is try to brace myself for it, though I know I never can.