Anonymous wrote:Without bad, we wouldn't know good.
So kids need to suffer and die of cancer so you can appreciate a sunset? Right.
OP, the answer is that there very likely is no God. Once you accept that, you will find more peace and realize that you should aim to put out as much love and positive energy into the world and it will both come back to you and sustain you during hard times. There's not some mystery you're missing out on, some lesson you're not getting. If God tries to teach us lessons by creating child soldiers and Catholic priests that rape children, then we should all just end it now and stop being pawns in his sick game.