I posted about microcalcifications found on my mammo recently. Update - diagnostic mammo and u/s are "highly suspicious", BIRADS 4c. 4c basically means there is approximately a 79% of malignancy. Which, of course, means I could be in the 21% that are benign. I am trying to be optimistic, but I have been having a lot of pain (not related to my cycle) on the suspicious side, I have felt off lately and my eyes have a glassy, sickly appearance. I have scheduled a breast biopsy at four different doctor's offices. Overboard I know, I know. I was looking for the quickest date. I will cancel all but one tomorrow.
I don't want to pull everyone into my mini-panic, so I only told my sister and one close friend of the positive mammo and u/s. The friend dismissed me completely, "I'm sure you're fine." My sister was just silent, she's not so good with the prospect that I might be really ill. I didn't tell her that I picked up my films today and saw the BIRADS rating. And the ladies at the mammo office were giving me "that" voice and one said, "Good luck with everything" while giving me the "look". I'm sure I sound paranoid - reading more into facial expressions and words. I just turned 40 but have had abnormal mammograms before and none of that has ever happened to me.
I don't want to tell anyone else and cause unnecessary worry, so I'm posting here. You guys won't lose any sleep over my issues

. I feel some weird relief just typing this out, hopefully in a reasonably coherent way. At least I'm not keeping it all bottled up any more. It would be great if the biopsy is benign and I could get on with life, this is NOT a convenient time for cancer! I'm in the middle of a divorce and that is keeping my plenty occupied, thank you very much. So, universe, if we could put the cancer thing on hold for a while I'd be most appreciative.