Im so so sorry OP, what a horrible series of events. I hope that you get through this okay and that the future brings you joy.

So sorry, OP. Why does it always have to pour when it rains? The pp's suggestion to do the party after the holidays is a great idea. Give you something to look forward to.

I am sorry about your holiday party and I hope that everything works out with your dad. And, of course, I am sorry about the baby.

If you have to cancel the party, hold it after the holidays. Call it your First Annual Winter Extravaganza, send out pretty invitations, pick a fun theme, and enjoy the night with your friends. Any season is a good season for a party.

The week started out with a friend of mine calling to tell me that his father died. I went to the funeral. Then we found out that the embryo stopped developing when we went in for our u/s to find the heartbeat. This was the first pregnancy from IVF after many rounds so we were devastated. Next my dad calls to tell me that they found a tumor on his kidney and he will be having surgery soon.

The only thing that was keeping me going this last week was the holiday party I give every year. I've been doing it for many years and it brings me so much joy. I know it sounds silly but I really love doing it. I love having all my friends and family gathered in one place having fun. Now it looks like I may have to cancel the party because I will need to fly home to be with my dad.

It is a no brainer to cancel the party, but it makes me sad and makes all the rest of the crap feel even more overwhelming. I won't know until next week when the surgery is scheduled so I haven't sent out a cancellation yet.

I'm tired, scared, sad and overwhelmed. Thanks for letting me vent.