Aww I am so sorry to hear that you are feeling sad.
It could be due to the fact that you have not made any friends where you live now which I am sure IS hard - most especially since your husband is gone.
That is very nice that your oldest child will watch the youngest so that you will be able to enjoy some quiet “you” time for a bit.
Hoping you have a Happy Birthday tmw & I sincerely wish good things for you very soon! ❤️
