Anonymous wrote:FTM. Overall good birth experience but had some tearing and bladder retention paired with pelvic floor/tailbone damage that makes me have little bowel control.
Baby is one week old and I’m sure I’m dying. Can’t sleep even when given opportunity. Nauseous, shakey and flu-like feelings. Insomnia on top of frequent wakings to feed baby.
I’m certain I’m going to die. Yes, OBGYN knows about symptoms. Everything normal.
No fever, normal blood pressure etc. I’m on anti-anxiety medication.
Didn’t expect to feel like I got hit by a bus postpartum.
Baby is doing great thank God but I am not, what is and isn’t normal? I think I get 3 hours of sleep in a 24 hour period on average. Can this kill me?
You need support, OP.
I have experienced some of this simply due to sleep deprivation - the nauseous shaky feelings, specifically, are what sleep deprivation feels like to me. You are not going to die, but if you feel like you're being tortured, you are.
Your physical symptoms and recovery are worth further attention. Are you getting support for your pelvic floor damage and continence issues? Are you still passing any clots or has that leveled out? If you are breastfeeding, is it possible that you have some kind of infection (I'd think no due to lack of fever, but you never know)?
I am glad you are already taking anxiety medication. Consider that it may not be enough or may not be the right one and consider talking to someone about changes that can be made there.
Is it "normal"? Yes, in that a lot of people experience it, you are not going uniquely crazy. But also no, in that "this is not what is supposed to happen." I'd start with sleep, personally.