Anonymous wrote:I have been there OP. It's maddening. Keep asking.
I had luck finding a therapist covered by my insurance via this service:
https://www.joinuplift.com. My therapist is not perfect but just talking to someone on a regular basis has had a noticeable impact. Especially when I was feeling very unsupported by my spouse. It got me from one week to the next.
I've also heard of people having similar benefits from one of the online apps like Better Help. They are pricier and often not covered by insurance but if you are really struggle, it could just be a place to start.
You might also think outside the box and just try to do something over the next few days that would make you feel good -- a massage, flotation therapy, a yoga class, etc. It won't cure you but just doing something for yourself, especially something that addresses the mind-body connection, can give you that emotional release you definitely need.
Good luck to you. I'll be thinking about you. Please come back and let us know how it's going soon, even if it's no better or has gotten worse. You are not alone.