I think there are books about perfectionists that you might want to look up.

It sounds like you’re too focused on what results you want. Your kids will graduate HS sooner than you think—if you enjoy your kids, the. You might want to focus on soaking in their company while they’re still at home.

How about this thought to help you pivot: your kids see that people don't have to be perfect. They are lovable and valuable even on their "off" days. Someday they will have adult responsibilities - you don't want them to believe they have to obsess on being perfect. You wouldn't want that for their mental health.

Its perimenopause.

Have you tried breathing techniques? I also suggest a brisk 3 mile walk outdoors. The fresh air and a pumping heart are invigorating for me.

I have always been an anxious person. Lately it has gotten so much worse. A lot of it is from my kids who are in high school and all that comes with it (bigger worries, college...) but also work. I feel terrible whenever I am not doing a totally amazing job. I have very clear standards so I can see day to day if I meet goals. Today I didn't, and I enter the weekend worried about it. It's not rational because I know my performance is good and it was just a bad day, but it is going to weigh on me. How do I let it go of all these worries? I want to just "be" without always thinking about the future, worse case scenario...