Anonymous wrote:Oh, this is hard, OP. Hang in there.
So of course, my beta on 9dpt showed HCG of 5. Technically anything less than 5 is negative for pregnancy, so I am borderline and they asked me to take my meds for a few more days. No closure until I get retested tomorrow. They think this is a true value, but they've never seen anything so low leading to a viable pregnancy. (in my heart I know I am not pregnant)
I didn't take HCG trigger, and they told me that no meds can cause HCG to rise. I've always had undetectable HCG.
I just have to laugh as even when I am willing to finally accept the negative outcome it has to get dragged out.
I told myself I wasn't going to do anymore retrievals after this one failed, but now I feel like the only way to pick myself us from this devastating outcome is to jump into another retrieval. I hate this feeling of hopelessness, doing another ET at least makes me feel there's still hope and I can get out of bed every morning.