Prayers as well. I specifically asked god to show up in the storm and that you hold his through it. That whatever his will be - that he provide you nothing but comfort along the way. That nothing is lost forever / no doors are closed forever and god will open a window, part a sea, push a wall down, give light where there is darkness, give quiet when it’s loud, give peace when it’s chaotic. All of my very very best to you my dear OP. Praying for you during this time and lifting your concerns up from my mouth to his ears. He is able!