I'm sorry for your situation, OP. This sounds like classic depression. I would check out betterhelp.com. They have many affordable therapists that offer virtual sessions. I'd also look into an anti-depressant. When you're going through it feels like it'll never end. But it will. Good luck.

I’m sorry. I’m in the same boat + health problems and - the son. I hope we can both figure something out.

Life changes OP. Hang in there and due what you can to manage the rocky times. Agree with others that you should talk to MD re anti depressants and counseling to mitigate things until you are in a better place.

Know that you are not alone. Most people go throw times like these, some just hide it better.

Appreciate your husband first of all - be happy you have his support!! Lucky!

A wonderful son too!!

Please see a counselor and talk about the job firing

Take some baby steps to take care of yourself—more water, little bit more healthful eating

Call a friend, spend some time with people you enjoy. They love you

Also, F the job that was not meant for you.

OP, I could have written this. Including PTSD from a bad work situation (I quit but might as well have been fired), crap health, poor marriage, and feeling like my kids are the only reason I have to hang on.

I'm not in the same place as you today though. All that is still true, but I'm not feeling that desperate feeling today. I spent some time outside yesterday and I have a small thing to look forward to later this month (a meet up with a friend I never see). I bet you have better days too. Try to do something small to make today or tomorrow better. You deserve a better day.

Hugs to you, and solidarity.

First of all (hugs) 🤗🤗🤗 to you.

Life can get tough & it appears that you are now in a tough stage.

Life has its ebbs + flows - there are certainly going to be moments where you will feel overwhelmed, hopeless and see little worth in your multiple blessings.

You are truly blessed to have the love of your son. ♥️

Please consider seeking professional help.
You could be depressed and the right medication may take your life from black & white —>> to glorious Technicolor!

Wishing you better days ahead!

{{Hugs}}

Sending you love and hope. You can turn things around little by little. Don’t give up! Seasons change and you are in one of many seasons.

Start by apologizing to your husband. A note, a text, aloud, whatever. Hug him. Let him know you care. You will feel better, he will feel better, your son will feel better and it will lead your family in a positive direction.

If it wasn’t for my son, who adores me and who I adore, I don’t know if I would care what happens to me.

I got fired 2 years ago in a horribly traumatic way that I have PTSD from.

I suck at keeping my house clean.

My husband works non-stop and our marriage is crap. I’m nasty to him and don’t know why.

I’m in a dead end job.

I see no way to pursue what I actually want to do.

I’ve gained weight and can’t lose it.

I have to try to keep it together for my son. If it wasn’t for him, I would just want to leave everything and everyone.