Anonymous wrote:And I’ve gained 10 to 12 pounds fast, partially because I stopped being so strict about IF and partially probably because I’m getting older.
I’ve been saying the meanest things about myself in my head. If I had more discipline, this would not be an issue. But I am so sick of “having discipline”. logically I have a very healthy sense of self and see this weight as a non-issue.
But then there’s this random person in my head who is so disappointed in me.
Wtf. How do you manage this self talk and kick yourself to be kinder!
When I practice meditation, I practice noticing this "random person," but not engaging with it. So it's like watching the random person rant about this and that, instead of actually listening to/debating with/giving any credence to it. The more I practice, the more I'm able to look at what the random person is saying, and wonder what makes it say that -- if it's coming from some sort of script I unconsciously absorbed as a child, etc., and decide whether this random person is worth listening to -- or not.
I can say now that after a long time of meditation practice, the random person doesn't talk much anymore at all -- unless it is saying something that is actually worth listening to.