Hooray. Congrats, OP. When I finally got a positive (my one and only EVER to make my DS), my best friend asked me if I cried, and I said, "No - I stopped crying!"

HH9M to you! That's a great beta.

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Anonymous wrote:OP here following up. My feelings of foreboding must have been the progesterone and general stress of this process. I had a solid first beta of 727! I know we have a long road ahead, but I'm grateful that this difficult TWW ended up well and we made it this far. Thanks for the positive stories.

Congrats! When I read your post I immediately thought "pregnancy hormones"

Same here! Congrats OP!

I was weirdly super sad just before my successes. Good luck to you!

Anonymous wrote:OP here following up. My feelings of foreboding must have been the progesterone and general stress of this process. I had a solid first beta of 727! I know we have a long road ahead, but I'm grateful that this difficult TWW ended up well and we made it this far. Thanks for the positive stories.

Congrats! When I read your post I immediately thought "pregnancy hormones"

OP here following up. My feelings of foreboding must have been the progesterone and general stress of this process. I had a solid first beta of 727! I know we have a long road ahead, but I'm grateful that this difficult TWW ended up well and we made it this far. Thanks for the positive stories.

oh yes -- I was a basketcase/super sad after our transfer. the embroys didn't develop as quickly as they normally do and we transferred 2 morula. i was so negative about it. my baby morula is 5 yo.

OP here - thanks for these replies. They are much appreciated. Distracting myself by getting out and doing things with my friends and my husband seems to be the most helpful. And when I feel like crying I just let it out and then try to get absorbed into work, projects, etc. Although this state of limbo is so stressful, I will eventually be ok whatever the result, so I am trying to remember that.

I remember being in your shoes. It’s all so emotional. Sending prayers your way.

I feel your anxiety. It's an especially trying time and I was in tears practically every day after my transfer as well. Know it's easier said than done but please go easy on yourself and find small, accessible ways to relax. For me it was acupuncture, walks and painting.

This is an anecdote. But I was feeling the same as you (not de though). I expected a negative. I decided not to be hopeful, and I really wasn't. On day 14, I didn't even get up early to test the first pee as instructed. Around noon I decided I may as well test. Truly hopeless and sad and already decided it was the last chance. Yep, it was a positive test. Healthy pregnancy. Healthy baby.

How were you emotionally during your TWW? We had our embryo transfer 3 days ago, and I feel so down, even though we used a DE this time and have a better shot than ever before. We had many failed OE transfers so maybe I have PTSD from that. But I feel that I should be more optimistic and I'm wondering if anyone else was sad after their transfer?