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NP.  it is all about you, and moving forward. You first will have to dig hard into why you have never yet had any healthy romantic relationships, and only then can you move on (not just move on from him--move on in your life).

Give serious consideration to not dating anyone at all for a long while after you break up. Get into therapy and figure out the issue with unhealthy relationships so you do not repeat the pattern again. You can't really do that kind of internal work if you're also trying to date at the same time. 
Please update us. I'm concerned for you. But you do know you absolutely need to break up and the sooner the better.

Two years "sober" in 35 years? He can vow he'll finally stop this time, will stop for love of you, but his track record destroys any promises he'll make. [/quote]

Hi everyone, this is OP back with an update. I finally broke things off with the boyfriend.

I’ve been doing some deep introspection on why I ignored all the red flags and got involved with him and realized how deep and intense my codependency is. I’ve resumed CODA meetings and appointments with my trauma therapist.

I also realized that he fit my toxic dating pattern perfectly despite being an outwardly “nice” guy: was emotionally unavailable, had an addiction and therefore would never truly care about me, love me or prioritize me and his actions didn’t match his words.

It’s still challenging for me to see this stuff clearly since he wasn’t abusive like other men I dated. But he did emotionally manipulate me (whether he meant to or not) with frequent crying and intense conflict avoidance.

I felt uncared for and unprioritized because  he often made less than bare minimum effort (mostly texting with some voice messages instead of the calls that I had to ask for numerous times that he said he couldn’t do much due to social anxiety; often didn’t make any plans at all but waited until I was there for me to decide, was almost always late(often by a lot), didn’t really listen to me or hear me.

I sacrificed a lot for him and it wasn’t reciprocated. The relationship didn’t make me feel happy or fulfilled but my guilt over hurting him and my codependency issues kept me there until
I could gather the strength to leave.

Thank you for all of the messages and support here, I referred back to them to help me through.

[/quote] You are amazing! You did the hard work and are understanding why this relationship was not going to be good. It seems like you've had a lot of growth or at least reckonings in the last two months. Your post today seems pretty clear that you know the work you need to do to disrupt these patterns. It's really brave to confront yourself. Big hug! Sending you strength. Hopefully you will update when there are times you could use some virtual support to confirm that you did the right thing. Brava!![/quote]

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