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[quote=Anonymous][quote=Anonymous]I ruined my 3 years marriage and 6 years relationship and been divorced 3 months ago. She did not feel valued and respected for years. I was avoidant. I was not emotionally available and was feeling depressed throughout our relationship for personal reasons (guilt over my old father who I felt I "abandoned" by moving to a different country, job below my qualifications). I was also a serial cheater. One day, I felt too much guilt and confessed to her (to one cheating only). I also thought she deserved to know. Even after confessing, I was still acting like an entitled piece of shit, sending flirting messages to women, which she found out. This started a process that led to the divorce.

It has been 3 months and I am hitting rock bottom every day. It is hell. She was my soulmate. My everything. I can't live without her. I am empty. The divorce took the little sense of self I had. I am consumed with regrets, guilt, self-hatred and remorses. I also am a covert narcissist. Doing therapy.

Death and suicide are always on my mind, but I am too scared to hurt myself. I just can't live without her and can't accept that I repeatedly did everything to ruin the most precious thing I ever had. While she now feels happy without me.

I can't live with myself. [/quote]

You’re done with that life. Go move back to your homeland or get a job you do like and start over. 
If you have the guts to improve your morals and ethics, do that as well.
Leave your ex wife alone, you’ve hurt her enough. 
Get some meds for your depression and your own therapist, and NEVER play the suicide card for attention from your ex or children/[/quote]

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