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[quote=Anonymous]OP I am so, so sorry. I am so happy though to read you are in a good marriage with wonderful children and you have great friends. I am cheering you on from afar.

My trauma is milder-extreme emotional and verbal abuse growing up from a parent, a sibling  who was determined to destroy me, the sibling who I was very close to died, sexual harassment at work and then retaliation when I reported it and more, but nothing like what you experienced. I do relate to what you write though.

I feel like a broken plate that was glued back together seemingly well and is still usable every day, but if you look closely you see the break points. I do feel tremendous shame, sadness and self blame. I did find out my harrasser lost his job years later because enough people came forward, but he eventually got a better job. The sibling faced many consequences when she found new targets once I distanced in adulthood. The abusive parent has faced many consequences, but that is so complicated because I do love that parent and it was not all abuse-there was a cycle with good and loving interactions too.

I still feel like a fish out of water, but I also find I have faced so much pain that so many little moments in life uplift me that others may not notice. I also feel tremendous gratitude to be in a good marriage where I feel safe and loved and to also have such wonderful kids. I have seen so much darkness and the pain lives in me, but as cheesy as it sounds it helps me savor every bit of light.[/quote]

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