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[quote=Anonymous]OP here, thought I'd give an update.

I went to be with my mother and it was far worse than I anticipated. I spent several days taking care of her while triaging her clinical care, setting up the treatment plan for the metastatic cancer, and getting her in for some short term rehab while we lined up in home care.

I got her a palliative care doctor to coordinate things clinically, I got all her critical diagnostic testing accomplished before she went into rehab, and I got a live-in aide established so she could come home.  (She cannot pursue the treatment for the cancer while in rehab - they won't support the cost because they won't be sufficiently reimbursed. It's a nightmare.)

So I had a week of managing crisis, then slightly more than 2 weeks of calm while I lined things up. She came home from rehab and a sibling spent a week with her (and the sibling was remarkably functional and helpful, thank god).

BUT.

My mom is significantly worse physically, requiring a level of care well beyond what we anticipated - which may not be feasible even with 24/7 live-in care. If she elects to enroll in hospice (which she doesn't want but the palliative care doc and I think is appropriate and would provide additional useful services) she has to discontinue treatment. She is lucid and wants to keep going w/ treatment so therefore is ruling out hospice care. She's currently back in the hospital overnight to drain fluid from a lung - which may help with immediate relief and improved stamina but is a short-term fix. She may or may not go home again today.

I'm going up again tomorrow for several days, and planning to be up there for another week at the beginning of August. One or the other of my siblings might be up there for some portion of the weeks in mid July.

So we are doing our best to give her every chance to make her own decisions, have as much control over her life as possible, keep her safe, etc...  And we have all the "right" resources - money, insurance, management skills, live in care, etc...  And even so it absolutely feels like we are in constant crisis mode - not a stable, safe, secure environment.

So I think my visit this week may be about having to tell my mom that this is it, that she needs to accept that this is the end of the road. And that keeping her at home may not be an option because her children can't relocate indefinitely and even if we could, she needs round the clock support for absolutely everything (from toileting to eating) that is beyond what we are able to do personally.

It just continues to be awful, in ways I am shocked by (my mother's response to this, the nightmare of trying to weave together a supportive healthcare web, the UNBELIEVABLE work it takes to coordinate care...).

And even though my sibling has been great this past week, I can't not worry. So I'm not sleeping, I'm constantly rearranging my family's schedule and trying to figure out what I can line up to help them so I can take off, trying to do my job at a fairly critical time when I can't just take FMLA, and barely keeping my head above water.

I guess I'm using this post as a safe way to vent, more than anything else. I know what we are experiencing isn't unique - but it's unique to me. Even though I've buried a best friend, a father, several other friends and family members, and been at my mom's side through several years of nightmare medical stuff - I am shocked and horrified by how this is happening. And I have no idea how long it will go on. My mother has a body that is falling apart but a steel will that refuses to give up - so this is not shaping up to be quick, calm, easy, or peaceful.

I wish I could wave a magic wand and completely overhaul how our country and culture supports and manages the end of life.

Thank you for listening! I have reread the advice offered here MANY times in the past month and it has been a real comfort. (And I can't believe it's already been a month!)

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