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[quote=Anonymous][quote=Anonymous]I’m 46. I’m in a bad state of mind right now as my mom died across the miles yesterday. I’m a first generation immigrant.  When I picked this life, I did not think of end of life of my parents... I only thought about The American Dream. I can’t travel back due to the cost - it makes more sense to give the money to family. Plus I can’t risk getting stuck there due to covid.

No I don’t need I’m sorries... stating facts like this is helpful on its own. Math used to pacify me when I was younger, and now it’s writing anonymously.
In June my 39 year old friend lost her life to cancer.
In July my 43 year old cousin lost his life to a heart attack and left three young kids behind - also across the miles. 
I also lost two more of extended family this year.
2020 can’t get any worse I said.
But what do I know?!
I’m not a universe where everything happens how it’s meant to be.
I’m not crazy if that crossed your mind.
All I wanted to say really is that yes life is short. Act based on this fact now and reinvent yourself and do what you love.
Yet — you can’t do that because you need to go on and pay your mortgage and what not.
You just have to keep it together.
It’s not a problem to find some hobby.
The problem is to be an alien wherever you are.[/quote]

Good post. I feel it. 
I am also a first generation immigrant, we came here for my career. I no longer want to be here. I want to be back to my world, where my parents were alive, where my friends were not fighting with metastatic cancer, where my husband was was motivated to work and respected in our community, where I had friends, and friends to talk to... instead of crying now as I write this anonymous post. Covid messed up my life, events messed up my life.... I just want to be happy. But that seems only possible in the past...[/quote]

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