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[quote=Anonymous][quote=Anonymous][quote=Anonymous][quote=Anonymous][quote=Anonymous]OP, if your response emotionally or intellectually is to disagree with every poster (which is totally legitimate and fine) then maybe that's your answer? Valuable exercise if so.

I have a 6 month old and love the infant stage. I can't believe it's me. Thinking I got lucky with no post partum and an easy as hell baby. Generally I have tons of anxiety in life. [/quote]

OP here - quite right. I think it has been a valuable exercise. It has helped me figure out where I stand.

So glad for you that you got lucky. My baby too was easy. It was just me that was a mess. And I love my little girl so much I can't fathom knowingly plunging myself into that darkness again and being less than myself during her key developmental years for the slim chance of having another child. What if I put us all through hell and end up with nothing? Then I may never climb out of the darkness again. I think I'd rather stay in the light with my girl. My beautiful lovely girl who I'm finally healthy enough to really enjoy.

I suppose part of my issue is that I was taken by surprise when the OB/Gyn declared "you don't ovulate, you have to see a reproductive endocrinologist." I was fine with the plan of just leaving the door open but not trying too hard. To be suddenly told that the door was closed all along and I didn't realize it makes me feel foolish and disoriented. [/quote]

Well, if it took an IVF to get the 1st DC here, then it is not very reasonable to expect that the fertility issue just automatically resolved itself on its own and you can get pregnant naturally, especially now that you're 4 years older.  Having said that, there are people who don't ovulate that get treatment and go on to get pregnant.  I don't mean IVF, I mean treatment for whatever causes anovulation. For that though you'd need to go to an RE and get tested (needles, ultrasounds, waiting rooms, doctors, nurses).  If any kind of interaction with RE or their practice will be a trigger for you, then that's your answer: don't go there.  If you can stand getting tested knowing that you will not do IVF no matter what - it's worthwhile to get accurate up to date info on your health, as it will give you a basis for further decisions.

Also, 2 cents on something you alluded to. My best friend in high school grew up with a mom who was severely depressed all the time, there wasn't much help for stuff like that at the time and probably was some stigma if one needed to see a specialist for "head problems".  My friend's life sucked big time. Do not shortchange your existing child, seek proper treatment, follow through with it and if you have to - yes, give up on number 2.

I think it might help you to talk it through with a specialist.  What you say doesn't make any sense.
A. I love my DD, and I don't want the possibility of going through PPD ever again because of the adverse effect on both myself and DD
B. If I was ovulating on my own I wouldn't mind having a 2nd one.  
C. I am disappointed that I don't ovulate because ARTs are out of the question due to the previous experience.

A and B are mutually exclusive. [/quote]

OP here - you make a lot of sense and are clearly parsing what I'm saying quite carefully. Thanks for pointing out the flaw in my logic. I mean that sincerely.

I am going to talk to the IVF doctor we saw three years ago. The depression began when we did ART. It lasted through PPD. I was anxious and depressed PPD but I was also seriously grieving the whole time I went through ART. I was mad as hell at my body. I think I might be able to survive PPD again, but I think the combo of ART and PPD would be really bad for me. I also think that I would be really sent to a dark place if the ART was highly inconvenient and frustrating and did NOT result in a baby.

I'd be willing to do something like Clomid to increase my chances of ovulating. I can't commit to all those early morning monitoring sessions. I think it takes too much away from my family life.

Does this make more sense? It does to me anyway. [/quote][/quote]

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