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[quote=Anonymous][quote=Anonymous]I am the OP. Thank you for all of the responses. I completely agree that this is unacceptable behavior and I would be horrified if a friend or my daughter were in my position and didn't get out. To answer a question that was asked, he has been doing this for a LONG time. Definitely since before we were married but I think it was pretty gradual. Started with jokes about aspects of my life and somehow, over 7 years later, here we are today. I am finally hitting my breaking point because of the fact that my daughter is now old enough to start picking up on what is happening, and also because I am hitting a milestone birthday soon and thinking about how if divorce is going to happen, I would rather it be sooner than later so that I am still able to remarry and have more children if I wanted to do so.

Why have I stayed with him? Well, like I said, it's been gradual. I also like my husband in a lot of other ways. After a rough start, he is a very good father (apart from all this). He also has a lot of positive qualities. He is a very hard worker, intelligent, and we are similar in many ways. In a lot of ways we are good partners and complement each other well- it's just that he won't stop this shit.

During counseling, it came out that he holds resentment against me for a number of issues. The birth of our daughter was very difficult for us as a couple and he was not stepping up to the plate at ALL in terms of helping out. (Clearly I hold a lot of resentment in this area as well). Anyway, I probably went overboard with the nagging and demands dring this time because I just did not know how else to handle his lack of assistance. and he pushed further away.

He also holds a lot of resentment from the beginning of our relationship. I was very very young when we met and he was already an established professional in our city. I expected him to hang out with me all the time - demanded it really- and he lost a lot of friendships in the process because he let go of most of his activities and started spending all of his time with me. As I became older, I realized that this was not the kind of relationship I wanted and started to branch out myself with friendships and activities, but the damage had already been done on his end on terms of letting things fall by the wayside. I understand his resentment and I would probably feel the same way- however, it is time to get past it. He is great about talking about these resentments and basically just kept saying in therapy that he didn't know when he would be able to move past them. Plus, I didn't put a gun to his head. Yes, I was clingy, but this was a LONG time ago and I do not think that it is fair to judge me on my behavior from years and years ago. I do not judge him on stupid decisions/behavior that he made in his own life at that same age.

I also made a few comments to him at the beginning of our relationship (during arguments) that I was more attractive than him. This was clearly out of insecurity on my part, because, like I said before, I AM objectively more attractive and pointing that out is mean and stupid. Again- this is the behavior of a much younger, immature person. I can really see why relationships don't last when people meet so young (or when one party is young). You have so much growth in your early 20s and at least in my case, I am a totally different person than I was at 20-21. It is unfortunate that he caught the tail end of my immature years, but I can't spend the rest of my life suffering because of that.

I would ideally like to have a trial separation to give us both time to assess apart and to see if the reality of divorce is enough to stop his behavior. I just don't see how to do that in secret, and the reality is that once or family and friends know about a separation/potential divorce, I don't think it is possible to completely rebound from that.

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I'm so sorry that you're going through this. I'm sorry that your relationship doesn't seem to be working out, and I'm so terribly sorry that your decision is made that much harder by the fact that you have a daughter. I have to say, though, if you have already made it clear to him through pleading, arguing, and counseling that he is hurting you when he insults you, as well as hurting his own daughter's development and self-esteem, it doesn't seem like he's currently very motivated to change his ways.
I really admire your perspective and the soul-searching that you've done, but when you're talking about him resenting you because you expected him to spend lots of time with you at the beginning of the relationship, I think you're missing something. Did you force him to abandon his friendships? No. Did you force him to be attentive to you? No. Did you force him to remain in a relationship with you? No. Did you force him to marry you? No. Listen, maybe you applied some pressure, but these were HIS CHOICES. If he resents you for HIS OWN CHOICES, that's a problem he is going to have to work out on his own.
I believe that everyone is responsible for his or her own happiness. If you need to find happiness without him, do it. Life is short, and you only get one.
I think a trial separation/long vacation is a great idea. If you always do the laundry, he might start thinking about changing his ways as soon as he runs out of clean underwear. Just remember, it takes two people to work on a marriage. If he can't find it in himself to put in the effort, walk away knowing that at least you have learned a lot from this relationship. You'll have the wisdom to find that person who will treat you like a woman should be treated. 
Best of luck. [/quote]

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