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[quote=Anonymous][quote=Anonymous]OP: thank you all for sharing. Reading your responses kinda scares me. If I’m going to be dealing with this awful pile of trash for the foreseeable future I wonder if I can even come close to recovering feelings for my spouse?

Day to day I like my spouse, we get along well but it feels like I’m living with someone who shot me…sure the gun has been taken away but they still shot me. I’m hanging out with someone who was awful and it’s like I’m now betraying myself. I suppose healing or something like it will come once I’m able to separate the crime from the criminal. 
Make sense? [/quote]

Makes perfect sense.  I’m about a year from D. Day.  He admitted it when I found evidence but I had spent the previous year (during his affair) constantly sick and feeling alone which I attributed to major work stress he was enduring.  It was awful and then the discovery.  We are together and have worked extremely hard in counseling etc.

Just now I can say it’s getting easier.  I still think about it every day. But not every hour.  I still have dreams.  TV /movies can be very hard.  Big life events like our child graduating get to me as in how could you risk so much for so little.  Married 22 years.  Didn’t know there were any major issues … and yes we were fine sexually.

I get the your analogy.  It’s awful to have the person you love and trusted the most, built a life and family with - completely betray you.  It’s awful that the person I’d go to for comfort and understanding is the person that did this to you.  It’s messed up on many levels and really plays with your mind, heart and body.

My advice- don’t keep anything in.  Rage when you need to , ask questions over and over if you need to, get space when needed , be clear on your needs - for me, I went from being a confident independent woman yo needing a lot of self esteem bolstering and assurance - the best thing my husband can say is I’m here and I’m not going anywhere I love you and I’ll never forgive myself for doing this to you etc I need to hear true remorse and understanding of the excruciating pain he’s put me through.

For me, comparison has been an issue.  Why her etc?  She is very very different than me but maybe that was the point.

I have very good friends I’ve leaned on and am so thankful for

I also made this past year all about me for once.  Travelled, exercised, bought new clothes, walked a ton, got really healthy, and I’m finally back to feeling good about myself

My marriage is good.  Better than it has been for a very long time.  We are optimistic and excited for our future.  I hope the same for you [/quote]

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