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[quote=Anonymous][quote=Anonymous]Hugs - I love my cats too.  I am not sure I totally followed the sequence of events, but I will say that I am not always sure if aggressive treatment is the best.  Your kitty was not doing well - letting him go through inaction may have been best.

Give yourself time to grieve, but if you continue to be unable to sleep or eat, seek counseling.  [/quote]

Thank you, sequence of events below, I understand time will heal but this is a permanent loss that nothing can replace, so not sure how unless I change my thought process:

-Oct 2015 - Blood workup with old vet, all clear.
-Late Oct switched practices, only took my female cat as she was in midst of thyroid treatment, diarrhea treatment and this continued as bi-weekly visits till she was diagnosed with heart failure in early Feb and we started Rx. I posed about this in the pets forum.
-My boy was losing some hair, looking weaker and getting callus on his elbows and knees, I notice in mid Feb, and made a note to take him to vet in March once the other cat stabilizes.
- On Sat Feb 19th he collapsed on the floor and did not get up for 5 mins
- Rushed him to vet, who said 4 lbs loss since Oct (records from old vet) and did bloodwork, but said poor prognosis due to chronic IBD and steroids. My previous vet had mentioned same due to long term steroid use. (However I though this meant atleast few months/weeks)
- Blood work back on Wed Feb 23rd, and he had pancreatitis, kidney stage 3, anemia, low potassium. Vet reiterated on phone that prognosis was poor and we can come in on Thu for supportive care, and also recommend a scan to rule out tumors.
- Thu Feb 25th I opted only for supportive care first to reduce nausea, increase appetite, gave fluids etc. By this time between Sat and Thu he had reduced his eating greatly.
- By Fri Feb 26th afternoon he still had not eaten even his favorite treats from my hand, vet said we can come in for second round of supportive care or go to Southpaws for scan.
- Southpwas only had a Sat appt, and I was panicking by then that if he had a tumor or leision we need to know sooner than later to facilitate treatment or putting him down.  So I took him for a scan via ER to Southpaws this Fri Feb 25th evening and they ended up saying he has a tooth abscess and gave him convenia. And did other supportive care drugs as well. I was very hopeful that the tooth abscess was causing the lack of eating and refused hospitalization for pancreatitis/hepatitis and came home to monitor.
- Fri Feb 27th night after we came home, he lost use of his limbs and I started syringe feeding him broth and baby food from what I read online
- Sat Feb 28th he was comatose but still eating via syringe. I also read about side effects of convenia and thought it might wear off and he will walk and eat slowly. I was emailing the primary vet who recommended euthanasia on Sat but I wanted to wait a bit.
- Sun Feb 29th was no change and he was further declining, heart rate was reducing, I could not even stand him up, eyes were glazed in a stare. We were planning to take him to vet and euthanize Monday am, but again I made a split second decision, hoping that ER could help him and rushed him though DH was against it. He was too frail to even survive the trip and moreover the ER trip on Fri had left him in bad shape either due to scan or the drugs they pumped into him. (My vet had specifically ruled out antibiotics in order to not stress him earlier in the week) Within 15 mins they came back saying they were losing him and needed to euthanize. I agreed and my DH and kids arrived way later. He died with needles and CPR and 10 strangers around him on a hospital bed.
- I was not even aware of home vet services I could have used on Sunday to give him a more peaceful death.

Throughout this I have so many regrets, I could caught his weight loss earlier, monitored eating closely between Sat and Wed, done scan at vet on Thu avoiding ER trip, gone to vet every day since Thu for supportive care, not using antibiotics might have kept his system running atleast few more weeks? Or on the other hand, maybe hospitalized him at ER like they advised, or taken him to vet on Saturday instead of syringe feeding and waiting for Convenia to kick in/wear off, Done in home vet on Sun etc. 
I feel I did not think through every step and that accelerated his decline and pain and now the loss is irreversible.

(sorry for really long posts)[/quote]

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