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[quote=Anonymous]I'm not necessarily writing for any advice. Just need somewhere to vent. I'm so heartbroken. On Christmas Eve, after being sure I was in for another BFN, my beta came back positive. I was so overjoyed. 2015 was a particularly ugly year. Lost a baby at 17 weeks and had a few unsuccessful cycles since. I thought that 2016 was going to be different. My betas were nice and high, and we saw the little heartbeat about a week ago. Then, on Friday at 8 weeks, I went in with cramps, and the heartbeat had dropped. They couldn't even find it at first. When they did, it was fluctuating but mostly around 70 or so. Basically, my baby was dying. I have to go in on Monday for a follow up where I'm certain we won't see anything anymore. Then I'll have to decide between potentially messing up my lining with a D&C or waiting God knows how long to miscarry with a pill or naturally.

And then I'm back to fucking square one since I never get any embryos to freeze. This last clinic was out of state, so I have to decide if I want to go back once more, which is all I can afford, or to go back to Shady Grove where I wasn't even getting to transfer most of the time.

I have been crying for the last two days. I can't eat or get out of bed. I am just so, so crushed. This is so fucking unfair.[/quote]

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