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[quote=Anonymous]My daughter is 15 months old and severely disabled both physically and intellectually. She is my only child. I am totally lost and don't know how to cope with this. I've been trying to find a good therapist but (a) I am not having any luck and (b) I feel like I can't say some of this out loud. My daughter is constantly in and out of hospitals, and every time she gets sick we get prayers for her recovery but all I pray for is that this time she'll pass away so we can end all this. End her suffering, end ours - I hate the doctors who saved her. If I had known this would be our lives I would've told them to let her go. And then I look at my daughter, and she is so freaking adorable and becoming such a beautiful little girl and I think, what a waste. She's never going to do anything except exist, she hardly even smiles, I don't think she recognizes us, and it's awful because I am her mother! I should be the one person always in her corner and never questioning her value. Instead I just don't see the point of this life. I just spiral in self-pity and despair and I don't know how to think about all this to get past it and be the mom this human being needs me to be. Fuuuuuck....[/quote]

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