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[quote=Anonymous][quote=Anonymous]So, here is my vent/confession. I know I'm horrible but I just had to get this out somewhere.  Like many others on this forum, I had a nightmarish fertility journey. Got pregnant at 38 naturally, but miscarried after 8 weeks. Then, after immediately seeing an RE, I began riding the infertility rollercoaster. Honestly, I couldn't even tell you the number of IUIs I had. I went through 3 IVF cycles. Chemical pregnancy. Two more miscarriages. Nightmares. Tears. Pleading with God. You name it. I went through it. Told some of my close friends but most of them didn't get it (unless they were going through it themselves).  When I finally did get pregnant and after all the injections (damn PIO shots!), there were multiple scares. Of course, I had to get an amnio because the first trimester screening came back with some risks. The whole thing was rough and honestly I still have nightmares.  But ultimately I was blessed with a beautiful LO.

[b]So, one of my friends told me that she accidentally got pregnant naturally at 42. She was dating this guy for about a year and desperately wanted to get married. He was hemming and hawing.[/b] She told me she didn't realize she was pregnant when she went to the GYN. Said she hadn't been tracking her cycles. Of course, her first trimester screening was perfect. Of course.  She told me she *felt* fertile a couple of months ago (she was obviously pregnant then).

Why why why am I not thrilled for her?  Why do I have these terrible feelings?  I should be happy for her that she didn't have to suffer like me.  What is wrong with me??  I feel terrible.

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Ok, I agree with all the people above and I would also note that the bolded makes me think that this lady is in sort of a bad situation, not someone to be jealous of.  She's pregnant at 42 with a man who didn't really want to get married.  This is a bad recipe.[/quote]

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