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[quote=Anonymous]I'm struggling with mental health stuff so please go easy on me. Going to try not to ramble but my thoughts are kind of everywhere. I have an autoimmune disease that affects breathing and muscle weakness. It's rare. My weight didn't cause it and it doesn't make things better.

Being fat has always been apart of my identity. I have a community of very confident fat, successful women. I tried going to therapy and I can't bring myself to talk about it because I feel shame. I want to lose the weight to improve my health and feel better. But every time I step on the scale I cry. At first I thought it was great and I tried to hype myself up  I am very morbidly obese. I've just started doing the prerequisites to have weight loss surgery. My doctor says I have to get it because of the severity of my hernia. I have had a hernia for about 15 years and it wasn't an issue until now. It's causing me pain and my bowel is affected.
I don't know what is wrong with me. So far since the end of January I have lost 83 lbs. My family is happy and complimentary and I feel ugly and disgusted with myself. 
I tried not weighing myself for several weeks and then I went to my doctor's appointment and the nurse excitedly told me I had dropped 40 lb since my last appointment. I started crying. Not just a few tears like really crying. She rubbed my shoulders and said that she was happy for me and so proud of me.

How do I get through this? After I have the surgery, I realize I'm going to lose a lot more weight and these feelings aren't going to go away. [/quote]

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