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[quote=Anonymous][quote=Anonymous]I feel silly writing this. Just venting really. There was a thread in the teens sub forum about a mom with overweight daughter and it made me think of my own mom-daughter issues. I was calling my mom to have our daily talk. I have a younger brother who my mom/grandmother always considered gorgeous and never failed to point out how they would have loved if I looked more like him. I was slightly overweight as a teen maybe 5-10 lbs extra, but gained the dreaded freshman 20. I remember my mom telling me that year that no one will love me because of my weight or when my hair was oily that no man would look at a woman who did not take care of herself. The summer after my freshman year, we vacationed in spain as a family. Today my mom tells me remember the time when you and your brother went clubbing, he got in and you did not pass “face control”. So here I am  in my mid 40s, 20+ years later, crying while waiting for one of my kids to finish skiing. I am literally sitting in a cafe at Liberty and can’t stop crying. This never happened that I did not get into a club. In her brain it somehow transformed that her gorgeous son was let into an exclusive club because he is so gorgeous and her fat daughter was not allowed to go in. Again this never happened, and I don’t know where she got this from. I am feeling extremely vulnerable right now. I said good bye and hung up. This brought all the memories of things that were ever said to me about my weight. My low self esteem has affected my relationships with men. I was on a sprint to find a boyfriend, no matter who it was just to have a boyfriend. I saw that a symbol of status as proof that someone will love me. I am married with kids now. i married my first boyfriend. We do not have a happy marriage but not entirely an unhappy one. I have since lost the weight through a combination of diet pills, yo yo diets, etc. Never had a healthy relationship with food or with myself.  I have a very successful career and people think that I am uber confident. Not true at all. Here Inam reduced to a puddle of snot over one remark. This is part vent part warning. Please be. instill of how your words affect your children. [/quote]

I feel you, OP. My mom was never quite as extreme, but she was on me about my weight from the time I was 17 - offering me $1000 to lose 20lbs when I was well within normal weight for my height.

She only stopped after I developed a clear drinking problem and everyone thought I'd probably drink myself to death (I have stopped drinking now). I'd recommend therapy instead of that.[/quote]

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