b_bright_eyes wrote:OP, I can totally relate to your anxiety, and think you're using this forum in just the right way - to help you work through this decision. I really agree with the PP who suggested working on being less of a "maximizer" - have found that pregnancy requires a lot of just trusting your gut and letting go of control. It was really hard and scary for me at first, but I just try to remind myself that this is a natural process and my body will do most of it on its own, if I just create the right enabling environment (and actually probably even if I don't).
It sounds like you've narrowed down to two choices. Maybe go ahead with one prenatal visit to your regular doc and come prepared with a list of questions, including some discussion of managing your anxiety. Then you can either (1) schedule your next prenatal with the other practice - and feel free to be upfront with your doc that this is one thing you're planning on doing to help manage the anxiety or (2) just call the other practice, let them know you're considering switching and would like to come in for a consult - they might be able to figure out a way to make that happen so that your insurance covers any charges.
And don't spend too much time worrying whether or not you're "normal" - it really doesn't matter anyway. Just focus on what it is you feel like you need in order to have the best pregnancy experience you can and to allow your body to work this crazy miracle. Figuring out how to go with the flow, has been the biggest, but most rewarding challenge for me, in some ways.
Good luck! You're gonna make a great mom. And what ever decision you make, that will be the right decision.
Thank you for your kind words and support. I know I have an anxiety problem and I am looking for help with this. Insults are not helpful to anyone. They don't hurt my feelings because I honestly I don't care what an anonymous stranger who seeks to belittle and insult someone online thinks. I do however appreciate honest feedback. This advice is helpful, most posters have been realistic and helpful heresy thanks all who tried to help!
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