Vent

OP here. Thanks for all your kind words. I am feeling really broken right now. I've spent the last 4 years doing some form of fertility treatment/. We started with drugs and timed intercourse and moved on to IVF and then DE IVF.

I didn't mention that in addition to all the fertility stuff, I had a pregnancy I had to terminate because of a fatal fetal anomoly. That was before I started on the fertility roller coaster. I was older when I started but I never thought that I would have so much trouble getting pregnant after having to end that pregnancy. (back in August of '08) I got pregnant relatively easily back then.

I have a call in to an adoption attorney to make an appointment and to see what steps we need to take. We haven't made any final decisions about adoption but we want to explore our options. I'm mouring the loss of not ever being pregnant but ultimately the end goal is for us to be parents and it doesn't really matter how.

I am so f-ing tired right now all I want to do is sleep but I have a job and a life that doesn't stop just because I want to.

Thanks for listening (reading)

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02/20/2013 14:34

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Anonymous

I'm so sorry, OP. I know you can't stop everything else going on in your life (job, family, etc) but do try and take some time for yourself. Take a day off work if it helps - call in sick! Be gentle with yourself. Again, I'm so so sorry.