Waiting to hear if I have cancer plus...

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:The waiting is *terrible*. Deep breaths op you got this!

I appreciate this. Thank you. I can't believe how long it's taking!!

I woke up this morning with a terrible feeling because this day, or any day, could be the day I find out. The waiting is negatively affecting my body.

[Anonymous]

OP, praying for you. Everything will be okay.

[Anonymous]

Op, i’m a few months ahead of you. I start chemo next Friday. It is all so horrible, but the waiting was horrible and telling people was a lot harder than i ever thought. I waited until i had my final pathology reports before i told my young teens.

What has helped - until i knew exactly what i was dealing with, i told 4 people. That's it. I HAD to compartmentalize my life and couldn’t deal with pop up ‘how are you doing’ inquiries. Once i had all results and treatment plan, i told a slightly larger group - via text. Text was what i found to be the best way to navigate the inevitable tears. Siblings, close neighbors, coworkers that would need to know all got texts/emails. I still have sports moms that i need to tell, but who wants to hear that on the sidelines? They will get a text next week.

I keep as busy as i normally do. On walks i do meditations. On the worst days, i do heavy house and yard work to stay physically active with the hoped that i get so tired, sleep comes easier.

Going forward, i told everyone they could tell whomever they want. Also, i’d give treatment updates on sundays. That’s it. I need to navigate this with my kids and my mental and physical health as a priority. I know people will keep me in their thoughts, but i can’t handle the distraction of a ‘hey, thinking of you’ when for a few hours i’ve been able to forget i’ve got endometrial cancer.

I wish you the best.

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:Op, i’m a few months ahead of you. I start chemo next Friday. It is all so horrible, but the waiting was horrible and telling people was a lot harder than i ever thought. I waited until i had my final pathology reports before i told my young teens.

What has helped - until i knew exactly what i was dealing with, i told 4 people. That's it. I HAD to compartmentalize my life and couldn’t deal with pop up ‘how are you doing’ inquiries. Once i had all results and treatment plan, i told a slightly larger group - via text. Text was what i found to be the best way to navigate the inevitable tears. Siblings, close neighbors, coworkers that would need to know all got texts/emails. I still have sports moms that i need to tell, but who wants to hear that on the sidelines? They will get a text next week.

I keep as busy as i normally do. On walks i do meditations. On the worst days, i do heavy house and yard work to stay physically active with the hoped that i get so tired, sleep comes easier.

Going forward, i told everyone they could tell whomever they want. Also, i’d give treatment updates on sundays. That’s it. I need to navigate this with my kids and my mental and physical health as a priority. I know people will keep me in their thoughts, but i can’t handle the distraction of a ‘hey, thinking of you’ when for a few hours i’ve been able to forget i’ve got endometrial cancer.

I wish you the best.

I wish you the best, too. Your approach is a smart one, and I'm sorry you have to go through this.

OP

[Anonymous]

I do not have cancer. That is good. However, the mass reveals another possible disease that is a lot to manage and requires a lot of care and tending.

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:I do not have cancer. That is good. However, the mass reveals another possible disease that is a lot to manage and requires a lot of care and tending.

I meant to add THANK YOU for the support and help in this thread. I'm glad to have the news I have and confused about the twist.

OP

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:I do not have cancer. That is good. However, the mass reveals another possible disease that is a lot to manage and requires a lot of care and tending.

What is it?

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:I do not have cancer. That is good. However, the mass reveals another possible disease that is a lot to manage and requires a lot of care and tending.

I'm glad you don't have cancer! That's good news, whatever else.

[Anonymous]

Fingers crossed for OP and those waiting for news about scary diagnoses.

[Anonymous]

OP I am glad it's not cancer. I hope it's something that you can manage and tend and go on to embrace life.